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Reduced Self-esteem

She was normally Ok with being called as IT
But then guess yestrday, it was HER sensitive moment
When She read about IT...
She felt really down...as in REALLY sad..
Hah~ She shouldnt even be feelin dat though since it was the fact..
Maybe it wasnt DAT bad with the closed ones...
But then again..IT struck Her hard..
She had to do somthing...

It doesnt help when She couldnt speak Her mind with HIM dat night...
He was on reservist the whole week...
And by the time He is back...He just gonna flat
Though She was a lil relieved wen She heard HIS voice in the evening...
Guess, Evryday...She had to hear HIS voice..or She just felt restless...
and THAT mmt was Ystrday...
Lucky it wasnt THE WHOLE DAY with NO voice... :)

She still felt down...
Ended up..msg Him up about how She was feeling about the IT thngy...
Though She knew He had slept...

However, She woke up in the morning...
Checked her hp..and saw an sms from HIM...
The words...made Her morning...
Short but meaningful.....
For He loves Her for WHO She is....
Thank YOU.....

She smiled..... :)

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Long way to go...

Oh! Few more weeks and its Puasa mth!! Hoho....I have yet to bayar hutang soon. Shd be starting dis wk. wheee!! Cant wait for puasa though..BUT at the same time, dun reali feel the raya celebration coz guess....There is NO place to go except my aunt place..since bth my grdparents are nt ard anymore. Will surely miss dem on de first day itslf. Oh!! N this year...baju raya is gonna be GREEEENN...actuali jus recycle frm my Bro's wedding. hahaha...

Met up with Ayg ystrday...hah...n jus realise that he wont be able to mit me up...in dis few days. Due to his wk schduele n stuffs....n nxt wk is his reservist wk and the wk after is his evening shift..and we dun mit up during dat shift...AAAANNNDDD....dat means 3 wks NOt meeting up!! Hu hu~ But hope able to slot a lil time somewhere..b4 starting of puasa though. endureeeee~!!! Shd make myslf busy2 bee too.. hahah...lalalallala~~~

Yeah...got a lil Bonus too dis month!! Thank you ( u know who u r)....Sooo...wanna do a lil shop2...first up wanna buy sandals and the rest..tgk la ape yg nak dibelikan nanti. hahah...best!

Update...wen this is stuffs..OFF MODE

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Half a Year

Guess...IT had been getting on to me. Hmm...What is 'IT'?. It is de JOB...which I reali had been waiting for. Yes...ppl kept hearing me complain abt dis...bt I myslf dun even wan to tink of it sooo much and trying to jus ignore dis topic evry time it is discussed. So now...yet again...Im gonna be silent and wait. seriously HOPING there is something for me out der. InsyaALLAH...Ok, enough talking abt dis. Tired of hearing and Tired of talking abt dis. :P

Oh, besides dat...Ayg's bday was celebrated nicely last wkend..with LOTS of walking ard n did a lil shop2 for me n him. Tot of treating him lunch..bt he managed to get to e counter FIRST to pay it. Hmph! Luckily...managed to buy him a T-shirt he chose and like. Nice...had a great time with him dat day..plus gt de thing which I reali reali reali wanted too~!! wheee~!!! Sungguh happi sekali. haha~!

Hmmm....been counting downs and imagining and planning and lots more....to THAT day. Exciting for US...since I had been waiting for dat day to arrive and so called have a lil more freedom in what im doin. JUST A LIL TINY WINY freedom. hehehe...nwys, no harm in day-dreaming of stuffs, rite? hahah.. as long as its within ur capability n all. Wateva it is....hope Next year is gonna be an interestng year for Us...and some of our close palz tooo.. :)

Okies...off mode...