*Hmm..Quiet..Upset..*Kinda feeling down these days...its like, I really dunno how to say it. Its nt like theres any major arguement or fighting. I dunno but it will always happen to me when suddenly theres one point where u feel why is this happening to me..I feel like I wasnt being the gd gerl for my guy. Though he did not say that..but by the ways he showed..his sadness towards my behaviour..really shows it all. Im so sorri..Sometimes I feel like ..hmm..maybe he needs someone better to look after him??..BUT I really love him..I was wth him for so long and I had nvr regret it. A song..which really has an effect on me..dis days. [PS: Those who Know me well..shld have guess it..Yeah..its a SLOW song] I jus dunno y I like to hear this type of songs..when Im sad though I know Its NOT GOOD..Nway..Heres the lyrics..Its a malay song btw..heheApa saja untukmuTak ku hiraukan waktuKatakan saja kan ku laksanaPermaisuri kau bertakhta dujiwaApa saja untukmuKe dasar lautan biruBertaruh nyawa andai kau dambaMutiara... di hari lahirmuKita menuju gemilang asmaraTiada cinta setanding kitaKu rela sehingga ke akhirnyaTunai segala mimpimuUhh... ratuku( korus )Untukmu kasihKu cuba meraihBintang di angkasaWalau tak terdaya kan ku ikhtiarUntukmu kasihGembira bersedihSelagi ku bernyawaUntukmu kasih, ku korban apa sajaApa saja untukmuKan ku ubah carakuJikalah itu yang kau mahuApa saja demi kebahgiaanmuBukan ku pinta yang luar biasaCuma secebis janji setiaInilah... Lagu cinta kitaHanya terbaik untukmuSelama-lamanyaApa Saja:by KRU
*SmS..being heard on Radio!!*Hehe..u might be thinking wat is so great about an Sms being read on the Radio. Siti Nurhaliza came on Monday afternoon..Muffy called me up in de evening to tell me dat theres an interview wth SIti on RIA 89.7Fm. Thanks to her cousin..hehe. Otherwise..I had no idea that there is any thing on de radio. Switch 0n my radio..listen.Thn I heard about an SMS thingy..if u wan Siti to read it. I was so excited. SmS it..immediately. It was nearly going to end..10 more mins. Suddenly I heard de first two words of my SMS..but thy stop and kept laughing [abt something thy did..earlier]. hmm..I tot thy forgot about it..Thn..there it was. de DJ actualli read my SMS..and Siti was like replying it..I jus said dat I was so happy to go to de concert since it was my first time there..bla3x. She said back that "Oh..*small laughter*..We can thn mit on Wednesday k..bla3x [spoken in MALAY]"Though u guys might think..HUH..big deal! but to me..Woah!! heheh..I was so Happi..hehe..okie then..till nxt time..Thanks guys for informing me bout the radio interview..
*Chatting Day...*I was scanning thru my fren's profile in frenster dat i came to notice dis primary sch fren of mine. hehe..He's my old classmate. Added him in..finding some othr ppl..Thn saw him in MSN. Kinda cool actually..I mean chattin wth your old pals back. Got a lot of stories to tell..very interesting. Actually to tell u the truth..hes de only one of my primary sch frens dat chatted wth me de longest. Ya lah..since he got nothing to do..and hes like working at night. So he had a lot of free time in the day. Sweet memories..shared.. I mean..hey we were kiddos ad dat time..many things happen. Kinda funny though remembering all those things..
Chatting wth my dearest cousins..as always..evryday. Dats wat we do..its like a routine.hehe. But i love it..Love chatting wth them..crappy at times but fun. Midah..one of them..tot dat today was supposed to be her test day..studied till midnight yesterday. Ended up..its not today..will be on Thursday. pity her..But then..gd for her since she need not need to study much..Just revise.
I also recently found out that SITI is coming today..BUT i dunno wat time!! Hmmph! Nway if i no..i would have no fren to go wth. sad..but true. hehe..I really cant wait to go to Siti's Concert. Counting down the days..hours..YIPPEE!!
*Weekends..Staying Home*Been sick during the last few days..now jus recovering. Hmm..had fever..runny nose..coughing..and asthma in de middle of de night. ALWAYS! Ate my medicine..and rest at home. Since I had no plans to go out..I was basically restin..sleepin and eatin the whole day. Hope Im feeling much better..tomorrow since Will be goin out wth my frens. Im getting fatter and fatter now..really.weighed myself past few days and get a shock of my life! Start back wth my exercisings..now my body are aching though..hehe..tremendous...exercise. Ate up my so called Diet Formula...hmm..maintainin my food. Hmm..y is it so hard?? I shld not c food more often..keep eating and eating.hehe..how i wish i had a nice looking body..haha..Dream on man. still crawling my way up to dat. Always thinking..wat if I go to the Slimming Centres?? Ya..i can loose wgt but then wth my eating habit..hmm..kinda risky..will go fat..again! hah!*Cough!**Cough!*Had not been talking wth my guy often dis days. Both of us seems to be busy..I mean..calls wrong timing. Its like hmm....kinda miss him though..which I dun think he would no. Hmm..nvr mind..I can handle dat. Always had been..Tomorrow..cont wth my bloggy..OUT wth frens..
*Something..Someone*Had some inspiration to write a so called poem..but to me its not. hehehe. Something which had appeared in my mind..suddenly....Sometimes u tot evrything is alrightBut at times, things did not happen dat wayNormal behaviour..Normal AttitudeBut to some, U have changedU spend ur time in de net, surfing & searching stuffsBut U were told U changed maybe due to datIs it wrong to chat wth ur frens..gerls & guys?But thy tink it had influenced U a lotTheres a lack of communication aroundU are free, thy are busy When thy are free, U are sleepyU are told theres no ChemistryTheres nothing U can say since U hadnt noticedU really care for them But do thy knoe?No..thy wont know..thy wont undrstdCoz thy tink U dun have the Love in U to be expressedNo words have been spoken backJus a Goodbye and a Good Nite to end dat....
*Shopping wth My Bro*My bro had went for an interview at CMPB..an army position which he had always been wanting. Tot that I will be going wth my parents to the Bazaar..planned wat to buy. hehe. Jus as my bro n dad came home..my dad had to go out again to fetch my mom. I was ready by that time. But whn we all are back..my parents were too tired to go out. Ended up me n my bro..went to the Bazaar..luckily we had the car. So..bought same things also..bought the food first since the queue will always be long. We also bought some wrapping paper which only cost 10cents each. Saw a nice Pink..sort of japanese top. Love it..bought it too. hehe..Shopping for like 1hr+..met up wth my bro's frens. My bro's frens usually think dat we are lovers..but duh! we are siblings..maybe due to our different features in our faces..i mean..not that similar like how most siblings are.Nway..had a fun day..hang out..Let my bro carry all de heavy stuffs. hehe..But it was nice..its like de SIBLINGS' Outing..Great!
*Happily...*Yay! Aliza jus called me and told me dat she had bought the tix. haha! luckily there are still some available seats. At last..my wish to go to Siti's concert and watched her LIVE has come true.. Now jus waiting for e big day dat will be only NXT WED..like u can c de poster in my blog. Had to pay a bit more for my bro though since im dragging him. Hmm! I am rather not feeling dat well today..runny nose...coughing and if it continues..i will be having a bad asthma..which i dun intend to have one today. Be paying my fees later..wth Aliza..i tink jus hang out for a while. then in de evening, i be watching Fantastic4 wth my work colleagues. hope..i will be a bit well...not droggy..so i tink i continue bout my journey..hehe..yeah..journey for today..another time..
*So called..Happi..Excited..Down..Hope*Aliza msg me yesterday evening,telling me dat Siti's concert tickets are selling in a promotion where by buy one get one free. I was SO excited by then..Went to de net..surf in Sistic to find out if it was true. It had stated dat 1 for 1 promotion would cost us $57.90.. so we tot dat it dat amount of money to be divided by 2..left us only ard $30 each...seatings ad the $115.So happi..called up my bro..my fren, to ask if thy are interested. My bro..although he said he was on budget..but then he wld follow me if i had no fren since none of my frens are interested in SITI except me..haha.. So happily..planned evrything. Aliza..bringing her bf n me wth my bro. She went to Sistic on dat day itself..just as she wanted to buy..she was told dat its not exactly..$57.90 for two. It was supposed to be $57.90 for each. its like $115 for 2 ppl.Hmmph! all de excitement was gone..Sad though since I was realy hoping to go. But then Aliza ask de counter bout the student rate which only cost $65 for 2..its confirmed.hehe..no mistakes. we are thn told that we wld need our student pass to enter the stadium. I reconfirm wth the Sistic hotline..twice. "kiasu " u can say me. thy wld only c our student pass..bus pass wld also be included. I was SO happi.. call my bro up..ask him if he gt his bas pass wth him..Since evryone still had eir bus pass n student pass...we settle dat 4 of us wld be going. YAY! BUT jus as Aliza..walked back to the counter again to buy..IT WAS CLOSED! hmmm... so need to wait for de nxt day. ask de ppl there whether there are still available seats..lucky there were but we need to hurry. So Aliza..planned to buy the tix today in de morning. Hehe..Thanks gerl! Its like..me and her bf are de only ones interested to watch SITI whereby Aliza n my bro..will jus be following. hehehe... Now its jus hope..hope dat there are still seats available...
*Bday Celebration Wth My Guy*Got my dad's car..and the presents were wrapped. Started out at 4pm..drove to Tampines central..parked the car near TPSS..since its a guarantee that TM carpark wld be full. Heading for BREEKS..ordered..BBQ chicken thingy..if i rmbr de menu..yup2. and also bought a passion fruit tea. Nice! Was feeling full..after the feast..Yummy!
My guy tot of buying a cake at POLAR..but then since we had otr plans to go to..we decided not to. Scared dat the cake wld melt or..something. Drove off to 800+..to buy something dat he needs. We were deciding to either go Geylang or Pasir Ris park first. Ended up..we went to "Afghanistan"..bought my needed stuffs..and he managed to buy a strawberry cake there which he told me dat de cake drop at his home later..left only half of it.heheh.. It was nearly 7..when we reached there. hurried off..to Pasir Ris Park..nxt destination.
i tink due to the renovation thingy at de park dat it was SO DARK..barely lit. We parked our car..and jus to get the night air..we jus hang out ard there.. My guy was so enthusiastic as to open the presents and well..he ripped off the wrappers..like he dun care. hahah..dats wat he wld always do..Spend our time..talking..dats wat we always like to do..
It was then..time to go..though we only celebrate his bday..a simple..short one..I really enjoyed it. since its been a long time..dat we had eva go on for dis kind of outing. Send me home..and jus as we had parked de car. My bro called me to ask my dad to fetch him. Ended up..i had to drive back my car..to the main roundabout. Hmm..luckily..when we reached home after fetching my bro..there are still available space in the lower storey. hmm..love it! celebrating...eating..heheh..PS: Photos can be seen in my PHOTO ALBUM..
**What am i goin to do nxt??*Waiting for a gd show to start soon..at 3pm..dis kinda renovation thingy show. i like to see wat the results in evry renovation look likes. hmm.. i feel like goin out later wth my dad..buy something to eat..ROJAK..dun ask y..but i had dis craving fr ROJAK..dunno y. My mom is getting well..day by day..so shld be ok. I have yet to wrap my guy's bday present and write his card by today. bought him 2 t-shirts [hope he is able to fit in] heheh..and a cd wth a HAPPY BDAY written onto it. goin to put all dat in a Box.. need some aspiration to write the card though.hehe. Yay! although his bday is not tomorrow..we will be celebrating earlier. cant wait..got the car..got the plans..jus hope tomorrow would be a fine day.Had also plan to go and watch Fantastic 4 dis wed wth my colleagues. Hope they are able to come...i mean..4 had confirm..left some of them. So..today..sit ad home..waiting for the time to move..tick tock tick tock.!! hmm...jus need to wait a bit longer...
*Indonesia..Series..DIA..eeee!!*
ALright, first of all..i wasnt really thinking of watching DIA2 last episode..since i was busy on the net. But then i had nothing else to do..so ended up wtching it. Its a gd story i can say BUT the evil people in there are still enlarged. Its like de gd ppl are de ones who got cursed..in pain..all de misery. i knoe its jus a story But it like..when does it goin to end. I will be happi if at least the evil ones get wat thy deserved. The actoress..DID their acting well as to make us really hate them.
Its really heart aching when dis gerl, Duwi had to suffer all de pains because being threatened by her stepmom. She had to follow wat her stepmom said. No one in her family noes dat except her bro. Her dad? Hmm..too engross in believing her stepmom 100%. her mom? hmm..TOO LINIENT! and herself? she's jus basically TOO scared to tell the truth. i was like..hey gerl! jus tell ur parents wt ur stepmom did to u. Its like..she suffered! she knew shes goin to die soon [basically her stepmom fault..to give her drugs..trying to kill her].
I knew it dat yesterday wld be a hanging episode. I had to wait for DIA3. i want to see de evil..SUFFER!! u might be thinking..im dat bad..but yup..if u were to c de show..i think u wld be like me too..heheh. at least...one of them..suffer..i wld be happi. Its like..de gd ones..did nt dare to do anything..i really hope..the episod wld end in DIA3..which i did not knoe when will it start. so..yup2..dats about it..heheh
*Down..Stress..Guilty*I have been aiming to study as far as i can..University. First of all..now i am able to get in. I was quite happi. but in those happiness moments, there is still a part of me saying..can my parents really afford the payment? I feel bad..evry moment they will ask me about the fee and installments. keep counting the payment and evrything. I feel like I had become a burden to them as in had to use their money.My parents dun mind..all thy wan me is to achieve wat i had been wantng all my life. They always say its ok..its eir responsibilities. but seeing them working hard day and night..thinking about the budgets..it make me think twice. am i suppose to work? life would be mush easier if i start working..BUT they motivate me to go further. Dun tink bout the payment..thy will try to solve it.These things had really change my way of thinking. Now i will try my best to achieve wat i had always wanted. Study well..since its for my own good too. Thanks my parents for motivating me..and also my lovely brother. Wthout them..i wont have the dignity again to actually go on wth wat my dreams are. i will do my best..
*Getting Silent..Alone..*Gonna jus hang out ad home today..all ALONE. woke up quite late than usual..ard 10am. hehe. I tink dis few days will jus be me sitting at home.. BUt hopefully I will go out tomorrow wth Aliza. Kinda boring though sittin at home..sometimes. heheh. but i dun really mind.. depends. Thinking wat am i suppose to do today..Great! i had installed the shockwave thingy n now im able to plat SKETCH..u guys out there should play too.. interesting. u can see de link in here..Played for a while jus now..its like win lose or draw. I was supposed to draw..Snow..Prisoner..Spread..some are easy but can be quite difficult at times. coz i dun even no how to draw it. Nvr had been the 1st winner..hehe..Fried myself some french fries..n made salad. Does dis balance? hhaaha.. dats for my lunch. Will be cooking chicken wth soya sauce (ayam masak kicap) later..for my family. I had not been cooking dis past few days. So better start today..otherwise no food! ok..Im eating now..and my cat is looking at me..wanting food. those innocent face. hmmm..sori dear..none for u. oh! she had pat my legs..meowing for food. All becoz my dad is de one who always keep giving her food..wheneva hes eating.No one in de MSN..no one to talk to..i suppose..better play some games in here then..Continue whn i had something to write bout..heheh..MY LONELY JOURNEY AT HOME..heheh
*Boredom..real Bored*Jus as I tot i be goin out wth my parents..its all canceled. My mom is sick now..having fever. So i had to sit at home..nway i hadnt anywhere to go to. Im actually tinking..wat are we goin to eat later. I had not cooked..since i dun no wat to cook. The first plan was to go to my cousins place but looking at my mom..naw..i tink she better sit at home. Today was also supposed to be out wth my guy..but we had to cancel it last min for he need to accompany his sis to buy a new comp. Hmmm...hopefully nxt wk wont be ruined again. Goin to borrow my dad's car..in order to celebrate my guy's bday. Planning to eat at Breeks, Swensens or Seoul Garden. Its like once an occasion dat we ate at these places.. budget i can say. hehe.No plans..sit at home..surf2x and surf. tink my eyes are getting tired though. n IM HUNGRY!! hmm..better look in the fridge for food! Im getting sleepy too..zzZZzzz
*Peotry?? Mine is NOT dat Good..haha*Something which I wrote for like few minutes..way mths ago. Jus found back the paper..so typed it in here. hehe.. Im not gd in writing poems at all..but i tink this should be ok..for starters like me. Not creative enough..i can say. Something which made me write..during the times of sadness... Its like an inspiration..although..its very simple. Haha..I love u..I miss you
You are my soulmate..
You are de one..
Theres a mistake I had once done..
Does dat mean I'm de bad one?
I'm truly Sorry..I really do
But till when does this continue?
Do u trust me? I wouldnt Know
Though it happens five years ago
It hurts me evrytime u bring it up
I'm at fault..I couldnt say STOP
It's up to u now to make de right choice
I couldnt advise..I couldnt voice
Im not angry..Im just sad
But u do not knoe my feeling is like dat
It may hurt u but wat abt me?
I am de cause, I am able to see
You are de only one dat is truly for me
Please dun bring dis out whn u are angry
U may not knoe how much I love u
I really am..I really do
*Song..Feel like singing??*I just love dis song!! 1st ladi - never been replaced! Actually heard dis song like few months back but i had no chance of getting to know who the singer was n the song title..I once sang dis song in my greeting msg and my colleagues actually recorded it and play it loud in the office. HMmmph! heheh..memories..
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*A*
Baby I love u n I nvr let u go..
But if i Have 2..boy i tink dat u shld no..
All E love we made can nvr be erased..
N i promise u dat u will nvr be replaced..
Repeat *A*
I love u..Yes i do..
I'll b wth u ..S long s u wan me to..
Until De end of Timmeee...
From de day I met u..I knew we b together
n now i Knoe i wanna be wth u forever
I wana marry u..N i wana have ur kid..
Thing can nvr compared to de feeling of ur Kisses..
I can say I'm truly happi to dis day..
U make me thank God dat I live my life Evryday..
There's nvr been a doubt in my mind..
Dat i regret eva having u by my side..
Bt if de day comes..Then i have 2 let u go
I think theres something I shld probably let u no..
dat evryday dat i spend wth u..
and i will mis u coz im Happy dat i had to at all..
Repeat.. *A* ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The words really are very meaningful to me..and duh! its so easy to remember. oh!! each time i hear it..I'll be singing too..Lalalala.... *Ps..but hopefully i get the lyrics right..hehe..i tink so..*