*Thoughts*

It seems that one incident can change it all...
One time "they" will be talking..and anthr time it would be silent
I used to be patient..patient in all those actions..
BUT I was taken advantage...
I had to listen to "them"..follow "their" words
It continued for years till I realised...
I couldnt take it any longer...
Nway, without me wont make a difference..
Im jus like a passer-by...
Call when needed and left alone when in no use...
It seems that I had been far away...
Far away from "their" laughters , jokes...
Its jus not my behaviour to NOT make de first move..
BUT my heart is becoming hard to do anything..
Is it my ego?? But it had alwys been me...
I used to call, to ask..to know whats wrong..
BUT i couldnt now... Its hard..
Maybe due to the years of being TOO nice..

"They" are getting further apart...
I couldnt do anything...
It feels like..I didnt have a place in "them" anymore..
It seems that Im not in "their" existence...
Guess...it will be this way...
Its hard to have only one party to be blamed on..
and the otr thinks..its right...

It hard to leave it dat way...
BUT why does it alwys HAVE to be ME??
Do i alwys have to make the first move??
Im tired! Tired of all these!