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Unexpected

Hadnt been in my cheery and bubbly mode lately...guess its the sensitive and moody period of de mth. hah. Nwys, besides the moody moody me eva since last few days...was kinda overjoyed by the results obtained yestrday ( guess some of u wld knw wat im talking abt). heheh...After all those days checking the website EAGERLY...nothing was seen but wen i was not even eager to see it,...was just scanning tru de webby and was glad dat it was shown. Alhamdullilah yet again...to be able to have dat result. Both me n Ayg had been waiting for it for sooo long....and guess dat waiting mmt gives us de best out of evryting.

So wats next?? Next is....I have to read n read AND read...to undrstd wats goin on. Seriously..at some pt, it seems tedious for us. But wat to do....u have to even if u dun wan to. Hmm... And tedious thingy plus stress mode plus sensitive mode DO NOT HELP in such mmt...which may lead to a lil bit of hiccups here n der....but I am reali "syukur" to have Someone who reali Understds me wen im down..enduring a SENSITIVE EMO fiance. hehehe... Sori, Ayg.....

At some point, Im Very happy with all de happenings ard me. I guess....one by one...things are getting a lil better in some way. Alhamdullilah. May ALLAH gives me all de patience it takes to encounter wat eva events ahead me. :) Guess....once it is CONFIRM PLUS DOUBLE CHOPPIES.....i will be extremely overjoyed...and if I get a job soon...dat will be a DOUBLE BONUS. InsyaALLAH.

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Whats up next??

Yay~! Abg and Kak Ima coming over for de night tday. best~!! Gonna cook somethng special for dem. heheh....Maybe FISH eh, kak ima~! I force u to eat k. *evil Grin*. heheheh....Cant wait cant wait. Wanna tel u abt de wedd preparations also tau~!!! hehehe...Muaks~!!!

Besides dat....its reaching end of de mth...and i am hoping to be hearing SOME gd news. I hope. So lets wait. Nwys, gonna mit up with my besties. After soooo long, meeting up with ALIZA dis wed...and also meeting Suz, Mas and Hani dis Sunday~!! Yeah...its driving and picture taking day~!! wheee~!! So cant wait for all dat.

Been surveying for some stuffs also. Cant get hold of cheap2 henna drawings. I know its still early...bt haha...no harm looking out for it, rite. Nwys....most of de ranges starts frm 120 and above. Nvm...can find some otr services. Still slowly looking out for otr things as well...and Thnks Suz for recommending some of de stuffs. I shall inform my mom yar. :) Im currently STUCK with my PINK diary...where I put ALL de requirements thingy..After de years gone by, Im finally using de PINK book Mas gave me for my bday. hahah....

My exercising routine is FINALLY back. yay!! hahahaha.....bought my normal GNC pills...and had been running yet back again. hahahah....WAnna Bukti kan to Ayg dat I CAN LOOSE MY WEIGHT. hahahah!! How i wish, i can eat n eat n EAT....bt no fats build up. ho ho...keep on dreaming, yati. :P

Okies....gtg now..Nothing interesting to talk abt besides all of de above. Hah~! told u...im leading a B-O-R-I-N-G life. hahahah......tink gonna do henna drawing on my hand later...JUST TO KILL TIME. ho ho... :P

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Updatezzz

Been a while since I last update my Blog..even my personal blog too. So here I am...just a few updates of my BORING life. haha. :P

Went for de TPSS chalet hosted by Mash. A fun gathering...jus de crazy US...like as if we were in secondary school. Soooo missing those mmts. Taking LOTS n LOTS of pics and BBQ-ing and eating and playing with de light sticks and fire sparklers. hahaha...Thks Mash for having a chalet for US. It was a Best one Indeed. :)

Besides dat, me n Ayg more or less had settled some of the things for de important event. Alhamdullilah...so I reali hope all will goes smoothly...Have yet to wait for somthing "major" too dis end of de mth. Haiz....so reali wish all will be A OK for us. InsyaALLAH....lets pray dat all be settled smoooothlly. hehehe.....

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Basically, Im just sitting at home EVRY SINGLE DAY. Looking at job ads which i dun even knw thy existed OR not. seems like there had been NO replies at ALL. So nt sure if its either my resume was not passed to de HR or de HR dept is working EXTREMELY slow or de jobs had already been filled. Haiz....The excitedness to get a job suddenly fades away from me.....Now i shall just wait n c....Had done my best. So guess...ALLAH is testing me...and Hope dis test will bring hikmah to de future. InsyaALLAH. Kept complaining to my dad...mom...and basically EVRYONE i know. hahah....

The oni thing which I seriously dun undrstd when ppl kept asking..."huh?? da ade degree pun lum dapat2 kerja??"..." hw come u not wking yet?"....I WISH i had dat answers...BUT how i knw rite..its NOT like as if I DIDNT do my part to find a job. Wat can i do if dat company DUN even wan me? haiz...Seriously Hoping I can get a job pretty fast...TIME is already running VERY fast...and Next year is SOOOO not a LONG way to go. I need to start saving;....DIE DIE. :(

If by end of dis mth, I am NOT working stil...I soooo in need any PART TIME jobs..which I had applied also. Haiz....this is SOOO killing me. Nwys, I know u guys are also bored with my rants abt getting a job. hah... :p LETS HOPE N PRAY....

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Was also stress up with some stuffs de past few days...and I was reali glad dat Ayg was der to make me smile. It was a different side of him....trying to make me extra cheery for dat day. Not like as if he nvr did dat b4. heheh..just dat dis time, it was a nice gesture. Something which makes me feel like i can REALI depend on him wen Im seriously DOWN.

Came down to mit me up....even wen he didnt sleep after he came back frm his night shift and all. Which eventualli leads to a 2hr sleep at de airport foodcourt. hahah...Yeah, I din wan to wake him up coz knew he was extremely tired. Realli appreciate it alot.....for being der for me...wen I seriously in need of someone to cheer me up. :) Thanks Ayg...

Oh...also made a PROMISE to Him....dat I wld Loose all my fats~! hahah...Not like he force me to do...just dat I realli wan to loose it all. Like my mom said..." Nanti nak kawin, baju tak muat...nanti baju besar2 sikit jer variety, macam mana?"....hahahah....Yeah..So de Motivation is DER. Plus after i heard one mak andam told Ayg dat I shd loose a lil wgt...dat makes me Highly Motivated AGAIN. SO yeah...starting it all back again~!!! woo hooooo~!!! hahahaha....

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De rest of de day tday...gonna slack at Home yet again. EVryones working....and Im "working" at home. Wonder wat i shd cook tday???.....hmmm...Okies Off peeps.....gonna get going....dunno get going for wat. :P

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Feeling so nice

The feeling crept into her dis few days...
It was like a fairy tale...
Something that makes her smile most of de time...
Nothing big or extravagant to talk about...

BUT
The fact that small things are done for HER...
Makes her smile each day...
Simple words but yet meaningful seems to melt her heart in evry ways...

Guess since HE seldom shows his romantic side...
And wen He shows it...it reali mean SOMETHING to her...
SHE dun need someone who alwys shower her with mushy2 words...
Coz she knew, such person reali mean it wen they say it and
nt jus a regular common lovey dovey words
Just to please a gerl...

N seems dat He had been doin small things dis days to make Her smile...
Her cheery voice will alwys filled up the phone weneva he called...
She knew...things done no matter hw big or small it is,
If it comes from His heart and his initiative to make it happen...
She knew dat lies her happiness in their life...

A simple life filled with sincerity and love....
Smthing which need not need to be show off to public...
But smthing which onli needs to be known by 2 ppl....HIM and HER....

She feel blessed....
Thanked GOD once again....
He alwys scared dat he couldnt afford a wonderful life ahead for Her...
But InsyaALLAH....
Start of a simple normal life...and they will nvr know what lies for dem in the future...
Its better than to pester or force smthing which is nt affordable and yet suffer....

Now....
They awaits for the special day in year ahead....
May look far...bt time will rush and b4 thy know it...
Its THEIR time...
InsyaALLAH....may all run smoothly....and their LOVE continues till de rest of their lives....

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Missing HIM...my late grdfather

memories with my beloved grd father...

Its been a week since my grdfthr left us all....eva since den, i was very busy settling stuffs...and keeping my grdmom company tgther with my parents. Been going "up" and "down" to her place....and basically jus to keep her mind a lil away from de loss. She staying alone at her house was NOT our idea...bt since she requested to do so, we cant force her up. but my aunt will be taking her in...and she is VERY welcme to our house weneva she wants to.

Datok had been very close to us eva since we were young. Playing games...going holiday with bth grdparents frm de maternal side. We NVR get scolded though He was a strict parent. heheeh....kata cucu la kan. heheh....So basically we had our childhood memories tgther with dem...n wen He was not ard Now...it was kinda give us a deep impact.

Diagnosed with heart disease..2 mths ago. Going in n out of Hospitals...Visiting him as many as possible. And evrytime, i see him with all de tubes...make me feel so sad. But he is a VERY STRONG man. He alwys acts like its NO pain...and even show me n bro...his exercise routines EVRY single time we got der. HE jus wan to get out of de hospital. But there was one time wen he was half consious and he actually show the "dead" sign with his finger to me n my parents. N dat reali trigger it all.

Guess....after HE left, we tend to find bits n pieces of things which had occur in de past few mths. Maybe all dat are de signs:

- First was my engagement...it was NEVER even intended to be done on JUNE last year for me n Ayg oni plan to do it end of last year or beginning of dis year. But eventually, my cuzzin postponed her wedding and dat ended up having my dad to plan our engagemt on June. N to tink of it....if it was nt done dat time, guess my Datok wnt be able to see me during my engagement. At least, he had been der to see his grd-daughter getting engaged. Alhamdullilah....

- Second was during Hari raya haji...where NEVER in our entire life dat we MISSED our visiting to my grparent house. Though ppl dun reali celebrate it much, but we still wld go to their house EVRY year. BUT last year, we din.....coz bth mom n me were terribly sick..and cant go out. N my aunt who had NEVER cook for dem b4...actually cook on dat Particular day jus for dem. how ironic is dat...It was sad...coz we din even had a chance to go up to dem during raya.

We had planned to mit him up with de newly wed couple...dis new year...but it was not fulfilled coz he left us tooo early. Bt i knew in his heart, he knew dat we had been wanting to mit him. N it was even more sad...wen we found out dat, he actually had ask my nenek to wrap a present jus for my bro n kak ima (newly wed) b4 he left....and the present stil lies in their house. :'(

Tears still fill my eyes up wen i tink of him.....wen i go to his house..and look at his picture. A STRICT parent to my mom and de siblings...but a dearly grdfather to me n my bro. It shws a lot of difference betwn him treating his children n his grdchildren. A strong individual...with great personality.

I will alwys pray for him. Semoga ROH-nye dicucuri rahmat.....AMIN. (Adek akan rindu Datok....) :(