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Missing HIM...my late grdfather

memories with my beloved grd father...

Its been a week since my grdfthr left us all....eva since den, i was very busy settling stuffs...and keeping my grdmom company tgther with my parents. Been going "up" and "down" to her place....and basically jus to keep her mind a lil away from de loss. She staying alone at her house was NOT our idea...bt since she requested to do so, we cant force her up. but my aunt will be taking her in...and she is VERY welcme to our house weneva she wants to.

Datok had been very close to us eva since we were young. Playing games...going holiday with bth grdparents frm de maternal side. We NVR get scolded though He was a strict parent. heheeh....kata cucu la kan. heheh....So basically we had our childhood memories tgther with dem...n wen He was not ard Now...it was kinda give us a deep impact.

Diagnosed with heart disease..2 mths ago. Going in n out of Hospitals...Visiting him as many as possible. And evrytime, i see him with all de tubes...make me feel so sad. But he is a VERY STRONG man. He alwys acts like its NO pain...and even show me n bro...his exercise routines EVRY single time we got der. HE jus wan to get out of de hospital. But there was one time wen he was half consious and he actually show the "dead" sign with his finger to me n my parents. N dat reali trigger it all.

Guess....after HE left, we tend to find bits n pieces of things which had occur in de past few mths. Maybe all dat are de signs:

- First was my engagement...it was NEVER even intended to be done on JUNE last year for me n Ayg oni plan to do it end of last year or beginning of dis year. But eventually, my cuzzin postponed her wedding and dat ended up having my dad to plan our engagemt on June. N to tink of it....if it was nt done dat time, guess my Datok wnt be able to see me during my engagement. At least, he had been der to see his grd-daughter getting engaged. Alhamdullilah....

- Second was during Hari raya haji...where NEVER in our entire life dat we MISSED our visiting to my grparent house. Though ppl dun reali celebrate it much, but we still wld go to their house EVRY year. BUT last year, we din.....coz bth mom n me were terribly sick..and cant go out. N my aunt who had NEVER cook for dem b4...actually cook on dat Particular day jus for dem. how ironic is dat...It was sad...coz we din even had a chance to go up to dem during raya.

We had planned to mit him up with de newly wed couple...dis new year...but it was not fulfilled coz he left us tooo early. Bt i knew in his heart, he knew dat we had been wanting to mit him. N it was even more sad...wen we found out dat, he actually had ask my nenek to wrap a present jus for my bro n kak ima (newly wed) b4 he left....and the present stil lies in their house. :'(

Tears still fill my eyes up wen i tink of him.....wen i go to his house..and look at his picture. A STRICT parent to my mom and de siblings...but a dearly grdfather to me n my bro. It shws a lot of difference betwn him treating his children n his grdchildren. A strong individual...with great personality.

I will alwys pray for him. Semoga ROH-nye dicucuri rahmat.....AMIN. (Adek akan rindu Datok....) :(