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Bitter Sweet 2009

2009 had been a bitter sweet year for me. Many special and sad memories will remain in my mind....

From friends engagement all year round....starting from Maria, Emi, Midah and Fizah to complete de 2009 engagement events. hehehe... Glad dat all went smoothly for dem..and happi to be there to share their happy moments of their lives. :)

Not only dat, My dearest bestie gave birth to a lovely little princess : Arissa Adriana (my god-daughter) whom I have YET to see her. Miss bth de mommy and herself. hehehe...Was so happi for her and Zahid. :)

sooo in love with dis pic....she smilezzz

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School was EXTREMELY hectic...with final term exams and thesis. Stying all night long...jus to make sure all were done properly..togther MSN-ing with Suzzie till late night. Gonna miss all dat...though it was a tiring thingy. N to top it up...graduating with my dearest classmates is a BONUS for me. After all these 4 years of hard work and all, It had actually paid off....Glad to be able to wear de graduation gown as well as happi to share the precious mmts with my family and frens. Its an EVENT dat i wld ALWAYS rmbr.

Love dis one most..each one of dem..do play a part in my life...and had been my support all this while...:)

Had my wisdom tooth extraction after years of waiting...had 3 teeth out..but lucky dint feel any pain At all. Lucky Lucky me.

2009 was also such a memorable year for me and Ayg. The year we got engaged just after i finished my final exam...de engagement which was so called last minute arrangement..hehe...GOD is great. After all de decision we made....till we give up on dis n dat...but it actually HAPPENS. GOD had planned out for us..and Im glad dat it happen dis year. Alhamdullilah. Though it was a small event, im VERY happi to share it with my family, relatives and friends.

I LOVE YOU GUYSSSS

Besides dat, this year marks our 10th anni tgther. A wonderful 10 years with Ayg....with lots of happy, sad, anger, irritated moments we shared. heheeh....Im glad to have him as my dearest soulmate...and once again i THANKED GOD for meeting us tgther. :)

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It was also de year where i have a new member in de family. A sister in law. hehehe.... Was very glad dat bro's n Kak ima's wedding went well...A touching mmts where i knew dat my bro wnt be at home all de time...layaning my karenah. But im glad to have an understdng sis-in-law who alwys der wen i need bth of dem. Thanked GOD for giving me such a complete nice family. AMIN~~

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Besides the nice and wonderful events happening within dis year....I was saddened by de loss of 2 individuals who are very dear to my life.

First was my dearest buddy, Yanling....someone who was suffering frm cancer. de person whom i alwys mit up once or twice a year....exchange gifts and telling our stories tgther. Miss all dat...and I was planning to treat her once i graduated...bt guess it will NEVER happen. May her soul rest in peace.

Secondly was my beloved grdfather....who had left us last 2 days. A shocking thingy since we tot he was quite ok...after his heart operation. But we were wrong. N to hear frm grdmom dat grddad had told her dat he could nt live long and some signs happening....state de high possibility of him leaving us. It was a sad mmt...coz I was close to him where bth me n my bro stays at their house eva since we were young. And de night of his passed away....went back to his house and it touches me again....where i rmbr hw we bth chooses our cups and glasses tgther and all dat. We had our mmts and all....... To see my grdmother alone der makes me even more sad. Guess...it will take a lil bit of time to put all de pieces back though it wnt be perfect...but it wld so called cover de "holes" in wat eva possible way. Semoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di golongan orang yg beriman. Gonna miss my Datok... :'(

memories with my beloved grd father...

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2010 will be anther year of surprises i guess.....which we all will nvr know what will in store for us. But wat eva it is, i hope it will be a smooth journey for us to go tru. insyaALLAH.... 2009 is de year of happiness and sadness for me n my family....May next year be a better year for us. :)

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Sick Sick

Just as I was starting my exercise routine yet back again....now im sick...and cant continue. hu hu~ Guess de MILO drink and cold weather triggered my asthma attack. Haiz...been awhile...dat I had a BAD asthma attack. N ystrday was de day. Woke up...start coughing and kept wheezing. Using inhaler dun work at all. SInce I cant even breathe de medication fully, guess it does nt work at all. So yar....yestrday was a terrible WHEEZING day. Sooo weak...where I was breathing fast..plus wheezing plus i cant breathe properly. Haiz....And fever doesnt help at all.

Tday, was a lil better...though I still cant breathe properly...and de ulcers in de mouth make swallowing painful. tsk tsk. So yar...a lil better BUT nt fully recovered....due to coughing2...and a lil breathing difficulties. Ate Mom's pills.....to reduce de asthma.

Went out with Ayg awhile...since need to book de chalet thingy. Walked a lil.....i was short of breath. Had to sit a COUPLE of times.....wen finally, we jus sat at McD for a meal...though i wasnt even feeling like eating. So shared a meal with Ayg. Went to basement...to collect de polar cake...and we headed homey. A short outing...coz Ayg saw dat I was reali out of breath....so had to head home early. But glad to mit him up even for AWHILE. :)

Glad to mit him even for awhile :)

Oh, due to my NOT eating periods dis days...been loosing weight a lil. hah~! Yeah a NOT so HEALTHY way to loose wgt. tsk tsk....bt den again, wat to do....din eat much...no mood to eat.... :P

Tmrw plan had to be cancelled....coz I knew i cant walk much..and reli need rest A LOT. coz...salangkan tday walk a lil cant tahan..tmrw...if gonna go wdlands and watch movie..sure FENGSAN. hehehe...so gonna postponed de outing. Sori Suz n Pinkie fren.

my beloved parents~!! SELAMAT HARI LAHIR~!!

Wanna also wish bth my parents and Ayg's dad, SELAMAT HARI LAHIR~!!! Since all of dem born in december...including meeeee~!! ahaha...of coz i cant wish hapi bday to myself, rite? so yar. hehehe...Semoga pjg umur n murah rezeki. AMIN~!

Gonna rest at homey de next few days......Need FULL recovery........

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I know I had been blabbering about jobs, jobs AND jobs. Guess....now is de time for me to wait. Had been applying DOZEN of jobs...though I din apply those wth shift works. heheh..NOT my kind of job to be working at night. No No....

About 2 more years....for de SPECIAL day..insyaALLAH. N like wat ppl say...its GONNA be fast. N once i have started working....soooo gonna save A LOT each mth. Many things to survey...though there are already some bridal and catering services in my mind. Just need to go to the shop to ask for more details...BUT....i guess it will be done most probably nxt year. Have yet to survey dis and dat...book here n there. Many2 things to look upon to. And all need MONEY. hu hu~

Besides dat, am waiting for de News...end of Jan. Reali hope we could get it...insyaALLAH. If it is meant to be...it will be. So i jus hope n pray dat we could get de good news....

Things had been quite "cold" past few days. I realli dunno why Im easily pissed off dis days..and showing bad temper to Ayg...BUT im glad dat Ayg is so called immune to my NONSENSE behaviour. hehehe....He had been sooo patient with me...thnkies so much for layan-ing my crappy mood past days. hehehe.....Realised it like tday, where I shdnt have acted like I din know him at all. Bad Bad....hehe....Im back to my normal self now. :P

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Abg n Kak Ima will be coming back from their Honeymoon tmrw~!! wheee~!!! miss dem lotz~! even MIMI miss my bro...she kept going up to de table where we put de wedding pic...look at it..and sleep in frnt of de frame. hehehe...guess...she miss him too.

Mom was sick ystrday....couldnt breathe due to her asthma. Ended up....went to TTSH....where Mom was given Ventolin inhalation to reduce her asthma...2 times. Lucky she was a lil ok....coz if it was de 3rd time, she had to be admitted ystrday. Gotten 2 days MC.....so now restie2 at homey.

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Im starting back my running regime...wanna start jogging behind my house area. WAnna looose weight...after some people commented abt hw much I have gained...and also...I feel more lethargic and getting asthma many2 times dis days. So not only due to ppl comments...but also due to my health, i guess. So yap yap....gonna start loosing all back again. hu hu~

N also after wat i heard about bridal costumes where u need to pay more (hidden fees) if they had to alter to a bigger size plus less choices...tsk tsk...gonna have more determination to loose it more more. hehe....So exercising back~!!! wooo hoo~!!

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So now....many things to look upon to:
- Saving money for de upcoming years - Loosing weight - Pray hard...hope to get a job soon n de gd news for US - Start surveying n booking de essential thingys most prob by middle of next year

Hope all goes as planned. :)

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Status is NOT important

Still rmbr de FIRST gift given by Ayg....
A small musical box which I was so engrossed with...which ended up Spoilt 3 days after...
Since I had wind n wind AND wind it a LOT of times....
It was a simple gift but it meant a LOT to me...

He was alwys scared dat I wouldnt like de gifts he gave....
We were still schooling wen we started dating...therefore, money was spend wisely depnd on de pocket money...
I knew...evry gift he gave is frm his heart...
Therefore, it din matter to me..on hw much it costs and all.....

Each year...each gift....was alwys accompanied by de worried-ness dat I wont like it...
But de fact was I alwys appreciate wat is given..no matter hw big or small....
Yeah....Most people DO have expensive gifts and all....dat I couldnt deny....
But den again, It all dpends on each affordability....
Of coz, you wouldnt wan to burden ur love on somthing u want soo much n u knew he cldnt afford it...

I guess....undrstdng each othr...plays a main factor...
And comparing with otr couples are sooo NOT the way....
Some ppl have higher income den otrs...and if thy cld afford it....its their rezeki...

I knew....no matter wat....if you have NO high expectations
You wont get dissapointed...
Be neutral....
B4 U even be with de one u love...you wld have known hw he is and all....
N to demand dis n dat frm him...is totally unfair...

But den again....some people do look upon status...
Guess dats de reality.....
Some like to boast as to what thy wd got and all....
Nwys, it depends on each couple....if u can afford it, why not.....

I cant deny dat at sme pt, I do wan dis n dat....
who wouldnt, right?
But each time, I see him wking soo hard for our future...
It brings me back to reality dat I shdnt burden him further....

N having my Dad's advise in my mind all de time...
I knew dat I shdnt ask toooo much from HIM....
My dad alwys say...
" JANGAN SELALU MINTAK NI MINTAK TU...KALAU TAK MAMPU, JANGAN PAKSA "

Nver look down on people...
No matter hw high ur education or job is....
DO NOT BOAST around to people...
And I will alwys kept dat in mind...insyaALLAH... :)

To see hw my family used to be last time....till now...
I guess we can be hw we are nw....if we compromise with each otr...
DUN expect to get all what u want....unless you are SUPER rich...hehe...
Den again....its stil stick to YOU and UR partner...

InsyaALLAH.....
No matter wat, GOD will alwys be there for you....during ur hard n gd times...
Im glad dat even I may not lead a luxurious life or surrounded with expensive gifts...
I thanked GOD...for the way I am living now...
A simple life which I am looking forward to share with....HIM
InsyaALLAH...in 2 years time... :)

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Life goes on...

And so....the last weekend had been a wonderful event in my life....where Abg and Kak Ima wedding had been running smoothly..though there are a lil glitches...bt to tink abt it...which wedding wnt have any glitches, rite? hehehe...n im glad all went well... With the akad nikah and all...alhamdullilah.

I really wanna thnked those who have came to de wedding...as well as those who have helped out in de preparation since Friday....especially the egg factory, sweets factory...and to de cooking of dishes for de saturday event. (Hani...i have yet to give ur bunga telur n sweetz). hahaha....

Guess...de days b4 de wedding, teared up a lot...coz i know dat I wld miss my bro A LOT. No one to accompany and crapping ard with me. N when ppl say dat I will be all alone at home...dat makes me even more sad. hu hu~ bt den again...like i say b4...life goes on. Abg has a new responsibility as a hubby to kak ima...and I will alwys pray for dem bth.

The ending of de wedding..was emotional...where my auntz hug de pengantins and all. Hehe..i DUN hug my bro though.....Hugs n kiss to kak ima...and i gt a lil teary..especially wen Bro say " JAGA DIRI" to me. hu hu~ It was a lil hard for me to let go...bt dad advise me....its abt time....dat My bro has his own life to move on.

Im quite Ok now...guess.....it will take a lil more time...for me to reali used to all this. N each time, Abg and Kak Ima came to de house...i will be VERY happie. Maybe some ppl dun undrstd hw i feel...wondering..wats de BIG deal when my bro n kak ima came to de house...BUT I know....Im jus a younger sister who somtimes need attn from my big bro n kak ima or else...i feel soooo lonely. Adek manja la katakan. hehehe.... N having Kak ima as my sis-in-law who knows hw i feel.....i am very glad abt it. N i Thanked GOD for meeting Bth Abg and Kak Ima...and making Kak Ima be a part of my family...

I pray for both Abg n Kak Ima...a happie marriage till eternity....and May I have many2 nieces and nephews soon~!!!! hahahaha......Muakz to you both~!! SAYANG AWAK BERDUA!!! :)

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Life without Bro in de house

Another few more dayz to my bro's BIG day....
Its somthing I really look forward to...but at de same time, a tinge of sadness feels me up...
Im gonna miss my brother...A LOT...
Its seldom for me saying dat..or i can say RARELY...i say I MISS MY BRO. hah~!

Guess...life must go on....
He will have a family to build up with his otr half....
Im very happy for him and my dearest future sis-in-law, Kak Ima

At some pt, I realised dat...after this weekend...
He wont be around at de house....
He wont be sleeping at my room...
He wont be der to talk to me about hw he feels after de big day and all
No one to disturb me and talking crappy with me...
No one who is gonna watch cartoons with me..and laugh tghther....
No one who alwys there for me to nag about...
He wont be here at my room...talking about stuffs...
No one I could complain my nonsense thkings to
He wont be der to help me wash dishes and hang de clothes..hehe...

I dunno why...but I guess...I will MISS him a lot...
My Brother who tolerates his lil sister ALL the time...
NEVER scold me and all....
I guess I will MISS the noisyness in house when he is around...
Told my dad dat Its gonna be boring w/o him here...
Which my dad says....he will accompany me...when my bro is nt here already.
He says its Ok....dats life...sometimes u gt to let it go..and nt stick with it alwys...

I guess...I am VERY used to have my bro around me...
I dunno why...I am very emotional evrytime i tink of it....
Im teary eyed now...and I reali dun wan to break down on de wedding day itslf.
hu hu~ really gonna try to control my tears...

I will alwys pray for the happiness of my bro and Kak Ima....
May their love stay foreva strong till de rest of their lives...
And as for me...I have to deal with it sooner or later....

But wateva it is....
I know Im GONNA MISS my brother a lot~~~!!!
ADEK sure Miss ABANG~!! :(

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Missing

Its been 1wk plus..since i last met Ayg and Im NOT able to mit him so soon either. Haiz...Gonna be busy with stuffs...especially helping with my bro's wedding preparation...plus He had SOME othr plans. Ho ho~ So...guess it be 2 wks plus til i get to see him on de next wkend~! Sungguh Boring sekali. But wat to do...need to save a lil money too...as not to overly spend. hehehe...

Many things occuring right now...and many things which i am realli looking forward to. reali hope dat we are able to get what we had been applying and wanting for. InsyaALLAH...if its in GOD's will...may we be able to get it. So for now....lets pray n hope...all will run smoooothly. :)

Anther thing, im REALLY praying dat i can get a JOB soon. haiz...like i say in my previous post...ppl had been asking me...hw come i haven get a job yet and bla3x. Its NOT like as if I NVR apply for one....its jus NO one call me up. Lucky my parents undrstds....told me nvm..hopefully by end of dec....someone WOULD call me up for an interview. haiz.....This SOOO reminds me of my after-poly years....dat I cant find a job..and eventually i decide to study after dat. hahaha...n dis time, i told my dad..." Abah, if adek tak dapat kerja lagi...adek sambung blajar lagi..boleh?" hahahahahaha......TERUK la my parents lagi. ahahahaha....had to supply me money for my studies AGAIN. hahahahaa.....bt nola...Brain need rest. hahahah

This few days....guess i be jus slacking at homey. This coming sunday..hanging out with my dearest MDIS clanz...been awhile i hadnt mit all of dem up. wheee~~~!! nice. :)

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Missing You so bad....
Looking at our pics are de only way dat i can release my missing mode to you...
There goes again abt undrstdng n sacrifices....
But I guess.....
With out dem....Nothing works....
So...although its HARD.....
Im glad dat I am able to hear ur voice evry single day...
Its better den NONE....

Its worth de wait...
For I shall be able to spend time with YOU in de next wkends...
Bro's wedding and family gathering...
Endure endure.... :)

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Hectic Dayzzz

Went over to SGH again ystrday to see my grddad....He was awake...and able to talk with us though he still is in a weak condition. So sweet of him..when he say dat he was worried when he know i was sick..as in due to my wisdom teeth op. Nwys...talk to him awhile...and since he was REALLI wanting to go out frm de hospital..he was acting like as if he is SOOO strong. Even show my dad n bro de way he exercise by blowing and moving2 his arms. hehe....Reali hope he is able to recover fast. InsyaALLAH....

Jus dat....his heart is stil weak..as wat was diagnosed as...Atrial fibrillation...where his heart is pumping irregularly with very SLOW heartbeat. 4 stents had been inserted into his arteries....since there are stil blockage and since the heart valves have collapsed allowing blood n oxygen to mix...and dat is already considered DANGER. N his lungs are watery too. So reali hope...all wil be OK.

Went dinner with GrdMtr, uncle n wifey and my family at Bedok...b4 sending dem homey. It was nice..when we talk abt past old2 stories..where me n bro were very small and living at my grdparents house. heheh...de funny2 stories..and all. Nice. :)

us with our dearest granny

my famileeee

hubby n wifey...

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Anther 2 more weeks to My Bro's wedding~~~ Wheee~!! Super duper cant wait~! Mom have yet to sew hers n my baju kurung for de DAY~! N i have yet to buy new contact lenses~!! decoration n stuffs have been bought....N guess...starting frm dis coming wk..gonna be busy beeee... Helping Mom with de cooking preparation n stuffs. and of coz...de decoration of de dulangzzzz....wheee~!!

Yesh~! N im gonna be de Pengantin driver assistant. HAHAHA....n yeah, de driver is gonna be Ayang...who else. hehehe....Sooo cant wait for dat. May the wedding be running smoothly and all. InsyaALLAH. wheeee~!!!! A special day awaits for my dearest Brother and my lovely KAk Ima. Muakz~!!! It will be a GREEEEENNN wedding affair for My family side....neat~!

de soon to be wedded hubby n wifey.... nice~!

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As for my normal daily routine...it has been de same all de way. N im stress out now...coz NONE called me for a job interview except de nonsense interview i had...last monday. hah~! N time is running VERY de fast..and I have yet to COLLECT money~!!! haiz....reali raeli reali hope i can get a JOB soon. Totally Broke right now..and oni depends on de "monthly" salary given by my bro. HAHAH~! :P

My wisdom tooth area...is recovering well. Great dat it din hurt alot like wat many ppl used to encounter. Lucky for me...it was A-Ok. Jus dat der is still a lil swollen-ness on my cheek...though Ayg say dat...it didnt reali show coz my cheeks are already chubby...so not much diff~! ish~! hahaha....

Besides dat.....guess I will jus continue my boring life ahead...though Im happi to jus stay at homey...but still....i need MONEY....to shop and many2 savings. De DAY will be reaching soooon...w/o u even realising it. tsk tsk.

OKies....off now....gonna eat de anti-swelling meddy... :x

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Tooth Operation

Finally...after sooo many days of cancellation, I finally went to de dentist to have my wisdom tooth extracted. Mom took leave to send me off to de dentist...since Dad was wking. So headed there....and i reali tot oni 1 tooth is extracted out....BUTTTT......de dentist told us dat de wisdom tooth had affect the otr tooth beside it...and the HOLE is getting deeper into de nerves. So we could either pull it off or have to go to a specialist to know on hw to save de otr tooth bt NOT 100% guarantee it can be recover back.

So after much thinking, i had to extract out de 2 teeth at de bottom and to prevent de upper wisdom tooth frm hiting de gum below....he had to extract out de upper one too..SO ended up with 3 teeth extraction!!! I sooo can feel de nudge where he pull it out. though i cant feel de pain..bt can feel a lil pressure when he pull it out. N i saw him putting de stitches too. HO HO~!

N now...im BOGEY at de behind tooth area.hahahah....bt lucky we did it nw..coz my gums are swelling and de teeth are getting more infected. Phew~ N next tuesday, i had to go dentist again to take out de stitches.

Dad went homey early and fetch us home. Bought chicken porridge for me. N i have yet to eat it. N here i am....still biting hard on my gauze. Scared to take it out.....and put new one in back. Many2 blood lar. hehehehe....Nwys...be doin it laters....Hope de pain wld increase as much. I can feel it getting to me soon....and lucky de sweeling had subsided. B4 dat....it was RAEALLLLI big...make me even more CHUBBIER~! hahahahah

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Mom n Dad had to rush to SGH....since Grddad is having anthr heart op tday....n de latest news were...dat he was breathless.. N im here at home...cant even go der to visit him. hu hu~ Parents told me to jus stay at home...coz scred dat my tooth pain will be unbearable...so here i am....waiting for their updates.Hope my grddad wld be ok. insyaALLAH.

Cant talk much now.....can oni chat tru MSN...or sms. hehehe.... so guys...jus msg me if anything yar. heheheh....okies...off~! the anesthetic is reducing...my left brain is aching...hu hu...... :P

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Nonsense Interview

Tday, went to the interview at a Pharmaceutical company at Changi area. A crappy interview i must say. A chinese girl b4 me was also from de same uni..as wat was told by the manager. The Mgr actuali open the exit main door for de gerl after de interview...and actuali hold on the door till de gerl went off. N when it was my turn, she jus open de office room door...and say, " You know wheres de exit, right? jus walk straight back".....hah. Not oni dat....

I was also asked to sign an agreement form which states....dat i could NOT apply any otr jobs in a company which is doing somethg similar with the recent company....for 2 yrs after i quit de job. Like HELLLLOOO~ I wonder...if i were to get atr places...and w/o realising dat its de same biz like dis one, wat am I supposed to do? immediately reject the job offer? If like dat, i wonder wt jobs i shd take....if i quit this company. haha~!

Den the next thing was...she ask me what is my expected salary...which i eventually say 1.9K. N she ask why must she so called give me dat amt of money. I answered dat....now even poly students are having 1.8k..and since im an Honors deg student and having previous wk experience, i wanted a lil bit more frm dat range. and guess wat she say?!! "Your degree oni 2nd class 2nd division.....Average ppl will have 1st div....urs are jus 2nd div...dats y i ask u...wldnt u tink u cd do better den dis".....crap~! ONLY STUPID PEOPLE wld say..thy dun wan to do better den a 1st div. and what does she mean by dat...dat im a BELOW AVERAGE student...which i am nt eligible to even get 1.9k. Maybe LOWER wld be fine for me, is it??

After all dat, I totally have no interest...She ask me if i wan to ask her anything..and i jus kept numb.told her nothing..dats abt it. Crappiness.I dun even bother already....n i tink de agency lady knows im pissed too...after she ask me on de phone. crap la...even if i get de job, i wld reject it. No point.....crappiness....

P.S: Thnks Ayg for sending me to de company jus nw...and to vent my irritated feelings IMMEDIATELY after de interview. hehehe

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Silencing....


I dunno why I dun reali have mood these days...maybe due to de "Upcoming" thingy which happens each mth. hehe...At sme point, I jus wanna hide myself and NOT talk ad all. BUT it wld never happen...coz i miss talking to my dearest besties...(u know who u r). Even wen we dun reali talk in MSN....few words here n der make me feel better. Hmm...I dunno why im a lil bit moody. Ayg even tot I look sad when I met him jus now...which I din even tink I was looking sad. hehe...

Nwys, seeing Ayg soo tired and hectic dis few days is NOT good. N hearing what is happening in his wkplace...Haiz...I reali pray dat evryting wld jus run smoothly. So...now...lets jus hope n pray. Hmm...besides dat....Nothing much.

Im jus feeling down...which i dun even know what i am down at. hehe..weird, i know. Guess...dis is de mmt where i jus feel dat keeping quiet is de best. Keeping what i tink...all inside me. I cant be bothered with things happening around me right now. I jus glance it away...

Guess......The moody-ness sinks in me at this mmt...May it dissappear in de wind......

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Changes....



At some point, I feel that I've changed....Though the tolerance level is still up der...Im feeling dat that level will sooner be down below. Im nt like hw i am back den...Tolerate evry single thing with reali good patience. But I guess....things happening ard me had made me realise that certain points are useless to be patient at. Being pissed off easily was not the IN-thing for me....but it began to build in me now...for I get pissed even in a small matter..and I know its NOT good.

Maybe due to certain things which used to take advantage of my patience dat i bcame as hw i am right now. Hmmm.....At some pt, it does help me to speak out myself....Guess I have to control dat inner me. Balancing the good and de bad aura...as to ensure no one gets hurt in the process.

N those who have know me well....thy wld knw dat wen i dun fancy someone...It wld take FOREVA for me to accept dat person. yea...dats me....The bad side of me. Though I wish to pull all aside...there will be a tinge of "NO ENTRY" within dat space of mine. But no matter wat, at times....the feeling of sympathy creep in me...which i will tend to give in.

Therefore, i guess....i should just ignore any unwanted issues. Since de more, Im involved...the more Im getting attached to such things and I dun want dat to happen. I guess being neutral is de best way now....No hard feelings..NOTHING. Jus me with clear mind. No comments....NOTHING. I guess.....issues will nvr end...therefore, we shd jus play along and to prevent any bleeding inside.

Maybe by den, the OLD me will slowly add inside....and I may not get pissed off or angry easily. I will NOT be bother with any typical issues...which I find it sooo irritating at times. But then again...THATS LIFE. Life will not be running smoothly....Thats de fact. No matter what u try to prevent, it just kept appearing but with a different touch.

For now.....I am just erasing what eva factors inside my head.......Erasing......BLANK.

Last weekends were full of Love between each one of us.

Saturday (7/11)

The day we all been waiting for....Alhamdullilah. It was de Best memories eva....spending de great time of our lives tgther...From meeting each otr in de morning for breakfast..to heading to Raffles convention centre to registration to helping each othr into our robes...sitting accordingly and finally walk on de stage to receive our cert. N it was even more touching when my loved ones are der to c me.

To be there with my fellow frens....were very memorable..though i wished all de MDIS clanz are der. But den.....no matter wat...we wil alwys have each otr in our hearts. :) Glad to enjoy each otr company dat day.....took lotz of pics and all.

All de hard work reali pays alot.....Doesnt matter whether u are wking or not...i guess...it still depends on ur dignity in achieving what u had alwys wanted. N alhamdullilah....all had been achieved. Rmbr de time when I wanted to wk n study....which I totaly couldnt handle...till my parents ask me to jus conc on studies. Therefore, i do envy those who are working and yet was fine with their studies...like my dearest Pinkie Fren who had been wking full time. And also those who have done a good job while thy are wking. :)

my parents...my support in my studiessss

My dearest love who is der for me alwys...

our family combine...

i LOVE u besties~!!!!! muakz~!!!!

throwing our mortar board...

After all the celebrationz....de next place we went were MARINA BARRAGE. Was extremely happi when Abang n Kak Ima able to join in. It was the Happiest mmt of my life. Cam-whoring away...with my Lovely complete family. hehehe....

Love dis one most..each one of dem..do play a part in my life...and had been my support all this while...:)

Just wanna say...thnk you for the support to my loved ones....and thnks to my lovely besties as well as de othr buddies for making my sch years an exciting and memorable journey of my life. i will know forget evry single crappiness which comes frm each one of u. Muakz~!!! I thnked GOD for allowing me to know u guys dis long.....treasure de frenship as u can...coz we nvr knw...when we are reali in need....thy are de ones who could help u too. :)

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Sunday (8/11)

The day where we decide to celebrate our Anniversary. hehee.....We tot of making it a lil different dis year....so we plan our date at Carousel...Lots of food to choose frm...But guess.....it doesnt reali fit on our tastebuds...but guess...at least we did try it once...hehehe...if nt, kept tinking hw it is like. Bt nwys...jus enjoy de atmosphere with Ayg...

Headed down to Airport to jus chill...since bth of us were VERY tired to walk2....and since de weather is HOT....decide to jus relax at an air-conditioned area...and Airport de best lah. heheh...relax at Ya Kun. nice~!!

Exchanged our gifts....Gave him a self made "book"...with editted picz and quotes..heheh...Hope he liked it.. and For me, he gave me 10 lovely flowers each representing each year we had been tru tgther...and Those flowers are REALLY special to me (Ayg, u know what i mean ah)...hehehe. In the card....it was memorable...when he ask if i stil rmbr de FIRST gift he gave me for my bday...

N of coz...i rmbr it clearly...A Heart-shaped Musical Box which i was sooo excited to see..and guess wat...i wind n wind de key MANY MANY Times...n de musical key eventually cant be wind anymore. hahaha....it was SPOILT after 3 days...hahaha...due to my CONSTANTLY winding the thing. hahaha... N after all these years...he decided to give me a NEW musical box..to reminiscent those years...and Im loving it...BUT try nt to wind it many2 times..wait spoil again. hehehe...

He alwys worried if i were to NOT like de gifts he gave....but...each time he gives me...Im very happi..No matter hw small or big the thing is...I reali appreciate it alot..since it came from his heart..and I knew he reali meant it a lot. It was indeed a nice day to celebrate.....a short but nice n sweet celebration. We were sooo tired...dat we went back by 6pm. hehehe...yeah..VERY TIRED indeed.

our lunch

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de cold seafood area

sushiiizzz

headed down to airport in de evening

had a light meal.....relaxxx

HIS gifts for me.... :)

Now...10 years after....its a special memories of having a musical box back den. hehehhee....love it... :)

Nwys.....wateva it is...Im glad we have met each other...and I have no regrets in having u in my life.. :) Love......