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Loveeee

"" Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu

Percaya padaku ku ‘kan menjagamu

Hingga akhir waktu menjemputku""

It was a short sentence...from a song...

But it meant deep...

For it was a rare thing for HIM to actually dedicate It to HER...

She saw It in HIS post...Asked HIM...

HIS answer: Yupz....

SHE smiled...it really meant something to HER

IT was so NOT HIM...

But SHE feel so touched as rarity does mean a lot...

SHE couldnt help listening to THE song next...

Hearing out the lyrics as HE says IT was meant for HER...

" I love You, Ayang....

You are full of surprises...

You may NOT show ur mushyness to me alwys

BUT I know deep inside, your love grows...as much as it did to me..

I cant wait to spend my lifetime with you soon. InsyaALLAH.

I cant Thank GOD enough for Having YOu in my life"

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Choices after choices

Its nearly 2 mths of me working here...evrything is doin a OK. Ask my supp abt my leave for nxt yr...coz as we all knw that my contract ends next OCT..and since im getting married on NOV...im seriously saving my leave to de NOV. My supp was telling me to jus book the leave on NOV if i wan to. Pray pray dat she will renew my contract...as in..de way she say it..cam leh extend..bt wateva it is...pray that contract will be renew. heeee...Okies enough of dat.

So wat did i do on my freeee time at work? Was searching for de holiday vacation thingy. HAh! Found a couple...soo de mabok as to which one shd i choose. BUT more or less i have 2 in my mind...result? Ask some agencies and all...coz tot of goin there by ownslf...book all and stuffs bt den realise that it is MUCH ex. so guess have to go to de agencies n c. Will let Ayg knw my 2 choices! wheeee~! I knw its still far away...bt heee..no harm surveying kan. since it will be my FIRST TIME goin overseas w/o my parents. (Not that i dun like to go with my parents...jus to feel de atmosphere of goin there with Ayg). hah! GUess...need to save a lil more up..for de HOLIDAY.

Oh! Great...n i hvae 6 more leave to apply! N i dunno when i shd take. PANDAI! hahaha...told Amy that...tink dat our wk is quite relaxing..dats y we dun even knw when to actually take de leave. im pretty sure that if u have a hectic wk..sure u be delighted to apply alllll de leave u have. And so...i have to c which date is best! hmmm...let me take a look. hoho

Few more mins to home...off ppl~! Enjoy ur wkends!!! muaxxx!!!

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Alone at Work

Buddy's on leave for 2 days..and so i had to do the work all alone. Hu hu~ Yestrday was kinda hectic...Was happily walking around the wards wen my supp sms me asking where i am. Den sms me again to head down to clinic to attend one patient. Haiz...seriously, de system either cocked up or smthing coz its like no use we block dat clinic..and stil patient are able to book appt on dat date. Hmph! N so...kanchong me...had to go down clinic halfway..where EVRYONE is waiting for DEAR MS YATI to enter and attend to de patient. My supp not in de hospital, my buddy on leave and de AA din knw that a pt has come to our clinic last min.Called my supp for further confirmation..and so i proceed. Hah! To be honest, it was scary la k...although it is only 1 patient. Even my buddy ONLY get to do de clinic after 5mths ok! haiyo! den my supp din even ask our AA down to help. PANDAI. bt wateva it is...managed to talk to de patient and all. nasib baik! hah! Den...after de clinic kanchong-ness, had to head back to wards to do rounding again! penat gue! But it was AN experience. :D

And tday....im all alone in de office. Ended up open my office door coz I dun wan to be stuck ALONE in de office...ho ho! Happy2 me..coz managed to recruit a few patients. And talking to pts can be funny though especially...dis one case where I wanted to explain wat we did...and it turns out...he read the whole paper..and EXPlain to me pulak! hah! he was pointing to each sentence (mind u..its chinese)..and He translate it to Malay for me. HAHAHA! siapa yg bilang siapa ni eh? hah! Nwys, guess some things just perk my boring day....dari jus sit at de office whole day

Happi with my work...we basically be very busy in de mornings..and by de noon, we kinda do our own things..since we have an AA to do de admin works for us. ehehhe...and dat is why..im here on FB..happily posting something. Ho ho!!! anther 2 more hrs to go...and im off frm work!! Happy upcoming wkends!! enjoyz!!! I hope im nt gona sick...been sneezing non stop. lucky have a big box tissue on my table. heee..okies OFF Peeepz

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Relieved

And so.....my daily routine is still de same. Hee....yap,and im still updating my blog after so many years. hah! Wondering if there are still readers. Nwys, pejam celik pejam celik...im already in my job for nearly a MONTH. dats like fast lar..n i stil rmbr writing abt hw scared and bla3 i was on my first day...dis n dat. Alhamdullilah....all went A ok, with nice peeps ard me.

Talking abt work....I have yet to communicate with patients pertaining to their recruitment and all dat stuffs. hah....maybe next week will be doin it. heee...and tday is the first day that I went to the wards ALONE. hai yoooo! hahaha...since my buddy need to go to the HQ...and since we had clinic in de morning, ended up no one doin the wards. N pretty sure that my buddy will be super tired...volunteered myself to do de wards alone. And so i did. Hah! Though get a lil lost..bt managed to get de stickers and cancelling the unpotential ones. Yay! Just to get ready for next 2 weeks where i will be alone again for 2 days wen my buddy is on leave! ho ho~!!!!

These 3 weeks are not a full day working week! This wk..deepavali, Nxt wk...Biomed congress on fri and de following wk having NHG active day and Hari raya haji. wooo hooo!!!! Hmm...anther one more day to de SPECIAL DAY for us. heeee.... and then few more weeks to be counting down A YEAR FROM NOW> heeee....Time is reali flying fast~ :P

Wokays..update up soon...

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Boredom

Im super duper hungry....BUT....trying NOT to eat. Controlling my diet. LIKE seriously...BACK AGAIN. Haizzz.....had been gaining wgt like crazy and my cheeks are BLOATED. Tak leh angz....Have few more months b4 de big day fitting and all...AND i seriously nid to start now. Haiyooo!! Had been running back again during de weekends. Ho ho...hw nak diet ni...since im goin for buffet with de family soon. hah!!! Ape dah...nvm nvm....must endure..nak baju lawa kan..so nak kena kuruskan badan sikit. hu hu

Work has been pretty much a ok. Need to do more research and havin a lil more knwledge abt the heart thingy. Besides dat....okla. jus dat a new malay kakak jus join us...admin. N while teaching her de basic thingy...she jus ask me..if i had my notes...n without segan silu..ask me if she can borrowed mine so she can look tru. OF COZ....my ans is...Ok...bt I din give my notes like duh! Org penat nak rak....tulis notes n all..tak kan nak hapi2 bagi dia kan. so I jus list out de main things and pass to her. Sori kak....bt im very particular wen it comes to dis. Dis few weeks are so called...gonna be a NON ful week day. Having public holidays, congress and active day...best! hahaha..nak escape jer. N my buddy is on leave soon. GREAT. Im gona be ALONE walking ad e wards. Haiyoooo!!

Anniversary is coming soon...and I have nt yet buy anything. Hmm...n we dun even have a date confirmed yet for our celebration since both of us are busy on de wkends. SAD! haizzzz....though had planned wat to do and go. So lets see wen will de date be. nothing to look forward yet. Sooooo boring giler. Hu hu~ Missing Him badly...haiz...if i knw, shd have took leave during his off day. ho ho....nvm...

Wokays.....off now. updates again..wen i have de time...

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2 weeks UP

Nearly 2 weeks...still trying to get use to the whole thing. Doin a lil fine with de case notes...thgh a lil slow though. Just dat maybe dis morning wasnt in my best mood. PMS-ing. Was feeling a lil pressure...coz my buddy is VERY de fast...somemore she used to be a nurse...so all this is like quite simple for her. N i feel soooo clumsy. Bt den, realised.....i shdnt be...since I have no nursing bkgrd and all. So its fair enough dat I had managed to read de case notes and all. heeeee

Walking and standing....finally made me get a lil used to it. Phew. Though penat...and lenguh at times, dat I need my dad to urut for me. THANKS ABAH!! Oh, have yet to read up stuff and all. Guess doin dat at work....hah.

Not only dat...during the meeting jus now, the otr boss...who nvr c us b4...actuali TOT i was an admin. Firstly, never even allow me to finish my introduction...and next, she dun even bthr to look at u much..wen she talk...BUT not to the otr CMs. IT was more obvious dat she kept asking me to do ADMIN duties while de otr CMs do de clinical things....UNTIL my main Boss sounded up to her dat Im NOT an AA....n Im one of e CMs too. SHe with her shocking face...apologized many2..and THEN baru start making me inside her convo. Heh. APe dah. Sooo bias... Nwys, since I wont see her much, fine for me den. Hmph!

okiess....da nak sleep........tmrw a busy day. Assist on de clinics and rounding wards...PENAT BANGET~! Wokay

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Work Progression

And so...it had been a week since I started my new job. How was it? hah! first day was a major headache...realised that i need to study abt Heart and all. N im soooo NOT into heart. haha....bt den again, slowly...evrything is getting back to me. Did a lil reading here n der...n more or less Im a ok nw. hehehe...though need to do more reading again! Since my dept oni have 2 ppl...so it was jus me n my 'buddy' and she had been teaching me all whole week. A nice environment.. :)

Nwys, work has been even hectic jus few days der...as in...handle clinics n all...on Tues n Thurs. Ho ho~! Penat gue...jalan n jalan n jalan!!! Walk n stand....seriously need to get use to all dat. hahahh....for smeone who dun like walking...too bad, my job needs to walk ard wards and all. but its quite intrsting dat u are able to communicate with patients and all. haha...n im stil having difficulities to read de case notes! hai yoooo.....soo de mabok. But nvm, will c hw it goes.

First few days were also tough coz I rmbr of my late datok wen i c de patients. Got a lil teary though. heee.. i guess, dis job is suitable for me. I hope. hahaha....de job scope..intersting and I managed to so called get my angan2 of being a 'doctor'. heee...coolness. So now getting use to hw de wk is...hope able to get use to the walking and all.

And Maybe i shd learn mandarin, hah. hmmm...MAYBE. lets seeee... hahah! Balik kerja trus tidor...nak gi class lagi eh. PENGSAN terusss!!! wahahaha...k..finally its wkend...can sleep and wake up late!! wooo hooo~!! Okies...off now..nak rest.

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One step done..de next step ahead

Alhamdullilah...today is the day of de 'autograph' session. heee...took leave from my wk..and headed off to the location earli morning. Yes...finally the lady called me up yrstday and tday was de sign2 day. Read tru de stuffs and all. Glad dat one step had been done.. Next had to go for the check up. Tmrw be goin to Alexandra with Mon n Dad in MORNINGGGG....Hope de result be A ok...heee...The best part of the job scope is...it deals with something which had happen to my late grdfather. So it does give a great impact to me. Something I wld like to do... :)

Evening be heading to Ayg's uncle house...and headed for dinner with his parents. Da brapa lama sey...nak gi tak ter pergi2...so hope besok...it will jadi. hahaha....so yay!best best...BUT cant go back so late..Mom alone at homey. Somemore on Sunday, will leave her alone AGAIN...coz of de jalan raya. ho ho.

Guess, dis coming wk is de last wk..i will be with KKH. Den I will leave de place....though my supp face was not looking very happi wen told her dat im leaving. Sowie...bt i have to. Went back to my previous wkplace at Parkway Health..bought a token for my previous supp for writing me a referral/recommendation letter even wen i jus work der for 2 weeks! Thanks to her tooo. heeee

OKies....dats all for now. Once its 100% confirm, will tel where and what i will be wking as. :D

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Missing

Guess the emo mood is here back again. heeee....Hadnt been talking to Ayg so much lately especially since he had been wking quite late dis days..and wen its evening shift..it jus got worst. hu hu...By the time, hes back...I will be soundly asleep. Hah! guess my sleeping time is ad 12am eva since im wking. ho ho~ cant wait to mit him up dis wkend. N hah...he is shrinking yet again. Da kurusssss....gd thing is..i like him kurus..bad thing is...he is stress A LOT..so no no gd. Miss you, love... :)

Oh, got to know dat our flat will be ready by earli 2013..much earlier den de initial date of late 2013/early 2014.. wheeee~ coolness...faster get keys..I HOPE. Nwys, shall c how it goes in few years to come. Tak sabar gue...hahahah

Work had been pretty much ok....not much thing though since my supp says dat..she scared dat once she teach me more indepth..i will be leaving de comp since had been goin for intrvws and all. Though some of u may tink dat I have already got a perm job...actuali its nt reali confirmed yet. Just got a call frm de HR as to whether I stil wan THAT job...and had to do some salary adjustment n all b4 i cld go der to sign de papers. Soooo...as long as I have not yet sign any papers...shall not say I have gotten any new jobs yet. Gona keep numb abt dat...Hope They call me up soon....after dey discuss de salary! Nak bagi salary pon susah...hu hu~ Shall not enclose all de infos yet...bt once confirmed...will surely share it in here. But ALHAMDULLILAH....for ALLAH to give dis gd news to me. Syukur tak terkata.

K.....gonna sleep soon...besk wk wk...Abah nt sending to de interchange so need to go out early. hu hu..okies off now..

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Updates Updatesssss

And so it has been 2 weeks since I started working temp again. How? Hmm..it was OK. The people n env is much better den the previous wkplace though. Since our dept is having a shifting process...so basically din do much. Help to clear de stuffs and packing most of de time. N nw since we had shifted to de new building..its back to unpacking n kemasing yet again. Though some of de staffs der so called took adv of u..snce u are a TEMP..and ask u to panjat here n der..cary dis n dat. BUt..knowing me..i jus do wat i can..wen i caNT do....i jus buat lambat2. hahahaha....

Not oni dat, jus found out dat wen u wk in HR...its gonna be VERY difficult to change ur job to our dept even wen ur a TEMP! No wonder...de resume i pass to my supp...was like stagnant. No updates on dat. Eventualli she said dat..once u wk in HR...u knw ppl salary..bla3...confidentially exposed. SOoooo...dat way..u cant go to otr dept coz dey need to c Hw much u are expose to that confidentialy area. Haiz.....policy policy policy..I shdnt even take dis job if i knw i cant enter KKH in de bidang I wan. Even told my supp..like dis...wasted my chance lar. Coz its so called 'Kelong' to dem if dey take their own HR staff. Nwys, Nvm lar...if ade rezeki kat sini..ade..if nt, shal c otr place. hehehe

Nwys, was soo glad dat Im gonna have 2 intrviews coming soon. Alhamdullilah. The funny part was...those two intrview calls came after i scribble on my paper....asking ALLAH..when someone will cal me up for an intrvw. Like seriously....i scribbled and all....talking to myslf...only HE can hear dat. N within minutes...i got a call frm THEM. hah! I hope...i cd get de job...liking de jobscope and all. N ALLAH knows wats best for me..so shall wait up for dat. :)

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And sooo hari raya has come..since last wk. More jalan raya to gooo...Tday n Tmrw will be family jalan raya outing. wheee~ Best banget~! And so as most of u guys have known...Im gonna be an AUNT soon. Alhamdullilah!! Its been very very long to kip dat secret frm de aunts and all...wanna give surprise to dem. N so...it is!!! Though sme may nt yet knw. hahahah..wheee~!!! Pray for all to be running smooothly. N Im gonna be an AUNT end of dis year or early nxt year. We shall c. So happi for abg n Kak Ima. ;D

de daddy n mommy to be :)

Wokays....signing off...Happy berjalan raya to u peeps~ :)

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Selamat Hari Raya

And so...Hari raya comes once again. This year...it was reali somthing diff for me. I reali have no mood to jalan raya n all...No grdparents to go to. The loss reali hits me dis year. No new baju kurungs dis year...except de one Ayg bought for me. Its like...de feeling is not der. But den, it was slowly being 'cured' wen we went to one of my aunt house. Not a whole company gatherin but it was nice one. Hanging out with de cuzzins, uncles n aunts. KECOHS~! N dis sunday will be MORE kecohs with de gathering again. Best~ :D

Oh, n also so its been a VERY long time dat I kept dis to myslf. hahah~! N so........finally some of my aunts knw dat Kak Ima is preggie~!!! hahahaa.....N im gonna be an auntie sooon!! So what shd I ask HiM to call me arh? hehehe.... Cik 'ATI' or Cik 'ADEK'? hahahah....Seriously waiting for dis time to come...coz al alg, Only my besties knw abt dis. heheh..Wheee..SURPRISEEEEEEEEEEEE~!!

Oh no...I tink Im gonna finished up my BANGKIT CHEESE~! hahaha..evry time, eat many2. Oh no!!! HO HO~~OKies, cant wait for de jalan rayas...with cuzzins...and fwens. whee~!!!

Wokay...da nak tidor. Byeeeeeeeeeeee

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Unexpected yet again

2 days ago...went for an interview...but it was shift work. As I din wan it...it was obvious i din get it...coz dey kept asking me on why i din wan to take de night shift. At dat point, I jus felt like i wan to take it...but tinking of de night shifts make me tink twice. And so...de result of it, dey couldnt take me in. Went home...was feeling ok...bt eventually dunno why...de sad and devastated feeling came along. Suddenly, it hits de breaking point...totally break down wen was talking to my DAD...til He told me Not to tink of it. At dat point, I was talking to myslf...and begging to ALLAH..as to help me up...coz I reali in need of a job. It was sooo sad...dat I couldnt even hear ppl say abt jobs to me.But Im glad ppl ard me...gave me support n all..and I was yet back to normal again.

And so....Friday came, got a call.....from KKH...a temp job. ALhamdullilah. I was kinda 50-50 abt dat...bt mom told me to jus take it. And so i did. And was even more surprised dat I was asked to start my work on dis coming Monday...for 2 mths. I dint even went for interview..and i dun rmbr wen i submitted my resume. but wateva it is....I reali feel soo blessed...SYUKUR tak terhingga. Alhamdullilah. There is alwys something surprising awaiting for us...and Im glad it did now. Terima kasih, ya ALLAH. So...its morning days back again, :D

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HAd been cleaning up my room de past few days. Throwing unwanted notes and books and some old2 stuffs. Saw my old diaries...hah! Read up evry single one of dem...hah..which eventually i threw one of dem away...as I do not wish to read back..abt old crushes and stuffs, though i did kept one of de pages..where It was de starting of de SPECS couple. hehehe...nice~

And great...de room had been cleaned up...BUT..have yet to clean my wardrobe. Soooo many bajus need to be given away...Ho ho..tak boleh pakai lagi dey. GEMOK already. heheh...So clean2 up....de rest b4 raya!! one more wk to go!!

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Tomorrow...is JB day for me~!! Be goin with Mom n Dad and Ayg. This time..Borong de drinks session....and buy otr home stuffs. Best best...plus its Saturday...and de shops will close VERY late. So wheee~!! Lets go shopping!! More tudungs coming up!! woo hoo~!! hehehe :D

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Down Day

It was an enthusiastic day in de beginning..prepared myslf for de interview and all. Went der and waited for de lady. SHe was OK...AT FIRST....b4 she went into more of de question. Though it was jus me n her....it is seriously miserable. Reminds me of de first interview i had last year...which also oni had one intrviewer..and so it is.

She was blabbering about me NOT having a degree...and there i had written down..at de form..my qualifications and yet she insisted dat I have NO degree. I was like...NO..i have a degree..a bach degree..and she say...No u dun..u oni have diploma. I dunno if she can even read lah ya. It took a few mmts...n i nearly wanted to take out my cert and show it to her...and den she eventualy say..oh ok. is it a bach of science...its nt right? i was like..YES IT IS. heart pain man..talking to her..and convincing her dat Im a degree holder. Do i look stupid to her dat she tinks im jus making up story??

That does nt end der....She blabber about why I have so many jobs listed. Told me dat I shdnt have even put dem at all....like no use. I kept telling her its a TEMP job...bt she jus dun get it. Ask me...y i kept changing jobs..i shd have stayed at de comp and wait for dem to change me into perm. SHe jus dun get it dat...its jus a TEMP admin at some random comp..i wldnt wan to spend my life at some comp which is totally not related. Haiz...n it was during sch days. She den so called compare me with her contractors...saying she used to hire contractors and make dem into perm and ask me to do de same too.

Her questions: Tel me wat u like abt ur current job...I ONLY wk der for 1 week! hw m i supposed to like a job within dat period?? and Ask me what i hated abt it...of coz, i dun wan to even bad mouthed de comp..and she jus dun seem satisfied. Told her...dat temp is diff.....its jus plainly admin. and she STILL dun get it. Ask me wat i had done aka achievement during my previous wk. AGAIN..i WORK TEMP! what proj did i do??! I jus type n update database. Haiz...its seriously heart break talking to smeone who jus dun undrstd. Blabber abt my previous jobs...

Den after she talk abt de main job scope..she looked..and ask..DO U THINK U ARE QUALIFIED to do dis? I was jus crapping ard. Seriously, i jus feel like going out of de room. it was a freaking LONG...40mins intrvw..which I dun even wan to go tru further. Anyway, she dun seem convinced wth my ans...all shwn to her face. N i knew im OUT. hah~! Wen i ask her when de result will be..she told me dat there are a few she need to c. It all dpds...coz she wan to c...someone who can reali do dis job. bla3....nwys, me also da tawar hati.

To be honest, It was de first time dat i seriously feel so down...hah..even teared up a lil wen i went out frm dat building. DUn ask me why. maybe its like...indirectly kutuk me or smthing. Haizzz....emo day for me, i supposed. Hope i dun get such crappie intrviews...PLZZZZZZZZ.....

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Fast come Fast go

And so like most of u have known...last Thursday..Got a call from an agency and I started wrking on de next day itslf. Was very happy althgh it was a temp admin wk. The first day was fine...got to knw my supp n manager..and dey start giving me wk. Updating directories n all dat. It was jus a simple data entry wk and so on...typical admin job. Ok. Den eventually all know dat Im a grad...and dats wen my supp say..Oh, dis thing wld be much easier for u den. But on de first day itslf, i had already had a dateline to do. So had to do de wk fast n catch up with de databse function n all. There were 2 malay gerls jus beside me...BUT..dey arent frenly...and I was left alone..during lunch. But nvm...i ended up fasting on dat day n de following day.

Den IT began..my supp began to give me de main case...and I tot it was jus helping out...BUT she ended up asking me to take over one of de case...liase with de company and send out de invoices and all WITHOUT her checking on my wk. So its like...I will directly submit my stuff to dem. Hah~! N all i knw is jus a BASIC outline of de whole thing. Dat does nt end der...one of de malay gerl KEPT asking me to print out her stuffs...and IM NOT EVEN UNDER HER. like hello~! My supp had to mengalah..and alwys say..Ok. N having a BIG printer and MANY ppl using it..and changing letterheads accordingly...MAKE me alwys had de wrong paper printed. N it took like FOREVA to print one single file....NO wonder she pass it to me! Hmph~!

Da bagi org buat....den evryone kept asking me if i had finished de wk..like evry single hour. Like hello..im jus here like de 2-3days..U cant expect me to do dat fast...until i even say..to my supp. IM NOT A ROBOT...i cant do dat fast. N having to do de job..which de perms are doing and Im having oni 700bucks to bring back homey...dun tink its even wrth. Its like im handling de main job...and b4 dat finished...i was given anther case. haiz...Penat.

It is even worst wen ur 'neighbours'..de malay gerls DUN EVEN TALK TO YOU. its like dey have their own clan..and im a loner. I tel u...i tink ppl wking in de library is NOT as quiet as me. I practically DIN TALK at all.....unless my phone ring. Its like..de env is sooo UNWELCOMING. ANd so...aftr tinking many times and get many opinions..decided to tender..one wk notice.Seriously cant tahan working der...NO LIFE. n i cant even go out to de toi....w/o getting lock outside coz NO card to enter. So i had to go toi like during lunch. Pathetic. No rest langsung..and MANY EYES are looking at u.

The first time being a temp and had to go for a meeting too. N i seriously had NO idea wat dey are talking abt. My supp was surprised..bt i had my own reason to quit. Den its like 'finding fault' day...coz ystrday she lend me her calculator..and I oni use it 3times..and eventually dat calculator was spoilt tday. N my supp ask...wat i had done to de calculator..coz after she lend to me...it became like dat. LIKE HELLO....told her..I dun even know..it doesnt drop or wat~ Den she went..Ok..nvm. Hmph! Jus one time, borrow...den spoil..den blame.

The otr 2 malay gerls are so TOTALLY not in my league...coz we dun talk..and dey oni talk amg thmslves..abtt their lives...bla3x. EAch day wen i go back...went to their table and salam. Tu pon..dorang cam tak hulur de hand first. Not like de normal peeps..Den jus nw...wen its their turn to go back hme first..Dey din even tegur me AT ALL...dey talk to the frens at de back..and went off...JUS BESIDE ME who is SITIING der. LIke...as soon as i turn..dey went off...LIKE DAT.

Hah! SO......since next wk is my last wk..Im sooo gonna take my time doing my wk...and gona ignore dem totally! Like...dun btr to tegur dem lar..anymore...wen i wan to go back. Malas....de past wk..been alwys iye iye nak make fren..bt dey totally malas nak layan u. cam u are some kid! Nwys, yap....gt a job cepat...gonna quit also cepat. heheh..takpela...sure ade some jobs out der for me....lets pray in dis bulan ramadhan..insyaALLAH....terkabul...AMIIINNN~

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The day

And so..de first day came. It was pretty alright...though had to write down de ways to handle the database. Plus had to do as much as i can...since my supp had a meeting on Wed, so need to do it asap. BUT...haha..im jus doin wat i can do. NO hurry2. hahahah...The people der are OK. Maybe coz still new...so thy dun reli layan u. But anywys....will oni be der for 3 mths...so its ok. Even msg up my fren who work at de nearby building to go lunch with me...since im a loner. HAHAHA~!

Still looking for otr jobs....and hpfully by de time my contract ends...i have a perm job or smthing. This is jus for experience..since de salary is little. heheh..even little den my previous wk..which have a 4digit number.hahaha...minus dis n dat...save setotet jer. So..lets see..wats up. Coz Even if de comp were to re-contract back....I have to finish de contract...and cant wk else where. so...pray dat i can get a Perm job sooon~~ :D

my ONLY stationery on dat day...

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Tday...went to Spore expo..with Mom. Hahah...like smgt like dat...we actuali took public transport...since Dad have nt yet come home frm wk. And so we went....got a small IT show, Metro sale and the Malay food expo. Annnd.....I got a new pair of sandals!! hahaha..best...and get to eat my TAKOYAKI. yumyum...terima kasih, mak n abah~! Haha..mom says...i shd have bought de sandals myslf since i alredy start wk. HAHAHAHA...yela tu....baru kerja satu hari...gaji pon lum dpt. hahahaha... :P

Hmmm...Hadnt been talking much with Ayg lately. Been busy wth his wk and all....and by de time, he's back...im already asleep. hu hu~ His new job scope...is seriously busy to de max. So, hoping der is a lil fwee2 time smewhere for us.

okiess......off mode~~~

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Unexpected

And so...de day had come as per normal..as I tot so. Went for an interview at dis agency..which i had gone for previously. To be honest, wasnt reali enthusiastic..coz i knew im nt goin to get any jobs like on de spot...and i had to wait for anther few wks or so. But ya, went...and all...Told de lady...dat I wld take any Temp jobs if available. bla3x...Went back after dat...Gt a few calls frm her asking if im interested in dis n dat...

Den in evening..abt 5pm, She called back...asking if im fine with the temp admin position at Tamp (biomedical sector). I was like..Ok..den she ask if i can start work tmrw. N i was like..huh? reali?...oh ok..can. Hah~! Ask me to come to sign contract on dat evening as well...which obviously I CANT..since im on my way to fetch Mom. So, gonna go to de agency...tmrw after wk.

Yap, even though...its just a temp admin wk, guess....can increase a lil of my income and alil exp. At least can save a lil money up..plus its very near my house..so minus de transport fare. hehee...ALHAMDULLILAH. Syukur... :D

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SHE was sad...the night b4..
Tears kept running down her cheeks..
And eventually SHE cried till SHE slept..
BUT SHE was alil alright the day after..
HE called HER up to mit..
Even wen HE was extremely Tired..
Coz HIS heart was so restless about HER..

THEY talked...
SHE cried again...SHE was not angry
SHE was just feeling DOwn..
HE took HIS hands on HER face...
Looked into HER eyes and Say THE WORD...

HE tried to cheer HER up...
SHE eventually smiled...
HE wanted to give HER a pink rose...but to no avail..NO pink rose FOUND. hah!!
SHE still rmbr HE used to give her Rose..those days
When HE upsets HER...as in A REAL issue..

SHE says 'its ok'
SHE just knew HE wld come to her and soften her heart...
And make HER feel better...
SHE thanked GOD...for having HIM as HER fiance..

Though problems and crisis occur...
SHE was glad THEY alwys try to work on IT...
ALhamdullilah...it stays dat way. :)

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Reduced Self-esteem

She was normally Ok with being called as IT
But then guess yestrday, it was HER sensitive moment
When She read about IT...
She felt really down...as in REALLY sad..
Hah~ She shouldnt even be feelin dat though since it was the fact..
Maybe it wasnt DAT bad with the closed ones...
But then again..IT struck Her hard..
She had to do somthing...

It doesnt help when She couldnt speak Her mind with HIM dat night...
He was on reservist the whole week...
And by the time He is back...He just gonna flat
Though She was a lil relieved wen She heard HIS voice in the evening...
Guess, Evryday...She had to hear HIS voice..or She just felt restless...
and THAT mmt was Ystrday...
Lucky it wasnt THE WHOLE DAY with NO voice... :)

She still felt down...
Ended up..msg Him up about how She was feeling about the IT thngy...
Though She knew He had slept...

However, She woke up in the morning...
Checked her hp..and saw an sms from HIM...
The words...made Her morning...
Short but meaningful.....
For He loves Her for WHO She is....
Thank YOU.....

She smiled..... :)

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Long way to go...

Oh! Few more weeks and its Puasa mth!! Hoho....I have yet to bayar hutang soon. Shd be starting dis wk. wheee!! Cant wait for puasa though..BUT at the same time, dun reali feel the raya celebration coz guess....There is NO place to go except my aunt place..since bth my grdparents are nt ard anymore. Will surely miss dem on de first day itslf. Oh!! N this year...baju raya is gonna be GREEEENN...actuali jus recycle frm my Bro's wedding. hahaha...

Met up with Ayg ystrday...hah...n jus realise that he wont be able to mit me up...in dis few days. Due to his wk schduele n stuffs....n nxt wk is his reservist wk and the wk after is his evening shift..and we dun mit up during dat shift...AAAANNNDDD....dat means 3 wks NOt meeting up!! Hu hu~ But hope able to slot a lil time somewhere..b4 starting of puasa though. endureeeee~!!! Shd make myslf busy2 bee too.. hahah...lalalallala~~~

Yeah...got a lil Bonus too dis month!! Thank you ( u know who u r)....Sooo...wanna do a lil shop2...first up wanna buy sandals and the rest..tgk la ape yg nak dibelikan nanti. hahah...best!

Update...wen this is stuffs..OFF MODE

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Half a Year

Guess...IT had been getting on to me. Hmm...What is 'IT'?. It is de JOB...which I reali had been waiting for. Yes...ppl kept hearing me complain abt dis...bt I myslf dun even wan to tink of it sooo much and trying to jus ignore dis topic evry time it is discussed. So now...yet again...Im gonna be silent and wait. seriously HOPING there is something for me out der. InsyaALLAH...Ok, enough talking abt dis. Tired of hearing and Tired of talking abt dis. :P

Oh, besides dat...Ayg's bday was celebrated nicely last wkend..with LOTS of walking ard n did a lil shop2 for me n him. Tot of treating him lunch..bt he managed to get to e counter FIRST to pay it. Hmph! Luckily...managed to buy him a T-shirt he chose and like. Nice...had a great time with him dat day..plus gt de thing which I reali reali reali wanted too~!! wheee~!!! Sungguh happi sekali. haha~!

Hmmm....been counting downs and imagining and planning and lots more....to THAT day. Exciting for US...since I had been waiting for dat day to arrive and so called have a lil more freedom in what im doin. JUST A LIL TINY WINY freedom. hehehe...nwys, no harm in day-dreaming of stuffs, rite? hahah.. as long as its within ur capability n all. Wateva it is....hope Next year is gonna be an interestng year for Us...and some of our close palz tooo.. :)

Okies...off mode...

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Busy Busy

Had been waking up very early these days...accompanying Mom to settle off my late grdmtr's stuffs. From the Syariah court to de bank to de lawyer..on 3 days straight. phew~ Very tiring. N more have yet to come. Guess..its gona be a LONG process b4 evrything is settled. Yap..dat LOT. hah! But nvm, as long as im nt wking yet..gonna accompany..if nt, guess its gonna be jus Mom n dad.

Ystrday, went over to Spore expo..dunno why its like SOOOOO pack to de MAX. like seriously. Went over to de ROBISONS sale..and was shocked to c de QUEUE..its like soooo damn long which ends half of de whole expo hall. SO ended up jus glanced tru and went off. Headed to the Wedding Expo..which as USUAL...NOTHING much. Its like de same old thing with very little wedding exhibition. I stil dun get it..wen dey make a big HU HA out of it..and yet de wedding compartment oni consist of 1/4 of de whole thing. Nwys, It was jus a scan tru...plus i tink de best period to go is during the MEGA WEDDING EXPO..if nt, i dun tink its much.

Hmm...Oh, Ayg's bday is coming sooonn! Great...no idea to buy anything, so maybe jus go for a TREAT outside. Seriously OUT of idea. Plus not going out on his actual day...since its famolie time...plus falls on de 10th july which is a SATURDAY. so....nvm...be a late or early celebration den. hehe..n he can even asked me "HOW OLD IS HE?" hah! leh gitu....old man alweady larrr

This wkend...goin to our fren's wedding...heading out in de morning since her solemnization starts at 11am..and its a ONE DAY event. wheee~!! cant wait....to c her. N wats best..she jus lived one bus stop away frm my place. hahaha...VERY DE NEAR la...

Hmmm...hoping to hear something Nice dis week..I HOPE. :)

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Publicity?? hmmm...

Just stating out my views...sometimes i just wonder is FB a gateway to publicise EVRY SINGLE THING of ur life? I mean...its find to state out...what u are doing, experiencing...and all dat. Lovey dovey and all dat. BUT sometimes, certain things are better to left alone and NOT to publicise to EVRYONE though i knw its YOUR FB...so its ur own biz to show wat u want. Im not anti with those who had shown their love and all to their otr halfs...coz I did dat sometimes.

But I just cldnt stand ppl who even publicise YOUR ARGUMENTS in FB. Are u for real? like Seriously?? I mean...dats is for ur own self to knw. NOT telling de world..dat U bth are arguing and kept commenting n writing at each otr walls. HAH~! Ppl judge u by dat...de way u even talk to ur gf/bf....de way u show ur anger..asking One to shut up and yet de otr half is saying SORI SORI and SORI~!! And with de reason stated der...hah! it even more pathetic.

Nwys, jus stating out wat i think. Wateva it is, its their own wall....and we are just der to read wateva things are written down. Jus dat...its kinda weird...to c such drama mama. But anywys...dats LIFE. -_-

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One Year Had passed

Pejam celik..pejam celik..its already A YEAR. That is how fast the time had gone tru. Alhamdullilah, we had gone tru the one year smoothly. Though arguments and fights do exist..hehe (mcm, wrestling lak...fights. heheh), Im glad we managed to pull it tru all dat. And I knw that there are still much things to encounter ahead...which wil mainly need our understanding and respect for each otr. And ppl alwys say...engagement had a lot of dugaan....from the wedding preparation to the understanding of each otr needs n lots more. Though each couple wil have different dugaans....guess it stil dpds on each otr to make sure the bond is still der...and not let loose. InsyaALLAH....pray dat all will be fine. :)

And so...de time is ticking nearer and nearer AND NEARER. yesh...anther 1yr half...Like wat my family says....Its GONNA BE VERY FAST BEFORE YOU KNEW IT. N next year will be a busy year for me. whee~ Many things to be settled. Im glad dat some of dem are already booked...but many have yet to be bought and all. And Im glad to have find de ONE which i had been looking for. Nice~~ hehe.. Also glad to have my mom n dad to help me out with the preparations..also Abg n Kak Ima..and my besties. ( YOU GUYS ARE GONNA SOOOO HELP ME OUT NEXT YEAR!!!!). hehehe

Nwys, yestrday was the celebration day...had a Scrumptious meal at East coast..which lead to a VERY BONCIT me. hahaah...i seriously couldnt walk dat time...was SOOOO full. haha!! Plus Ayg told me..NEXT TIME..dun order TOMYAM soup coz i ended up NOT finishing it. Ooopzzz!! :P Just went around Geylang...and I got myself...3 selendangs!! Den jus driving around..Punggol yet again. hehe...to de site with NOTHING der! hahah...

Had a great time with Ayg...and Thanks Ayg for the Bag..luving it. N hope yu like de brownies I made...I knw IM NOT A BAKER....so had to do some..ready-to-bake brownies from de box. HAHA~ Happy 1st Anni...may our jodoh be berpanjangan hingga akhir hayat.. AMIN~ :D

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The awaited Weekend

Cant wait for dis Saturday to come...hmmm...maybe missing Ayg so much. Hadnt met him for a date since last mth. hah~! with his busy schdueles...work work work...and OT almost evryday. Guess, need to sacrifice de meetingz. Yap yap....i mean..after all, he is wking hard for us. Was actuali supposed to have an outing with Ayg n his parents but since his parents had to go to some family thingy in JB last minute...dey are unable to join in. Nwys, gonna help buy dem de stuffs dey plan to buy with us dat day. Wheee~~ I wasnt thinking of celebrating our engagement anni as in an OFFICIAL thingy...but since HE himslf wan to have a small celebration...WHY NOT??!! Dats somthing rare of Him...(hahah...pantang org ckap nak celebrate). N yesh...gonna have a lil celebration..and guess wat??? Me no hap present. hu hu~~ Nvm, shall look up for something.. :P

Oh, Im back with my exercise regime...after dunno hw long of STOPPING due to my sickness de past few weeks. hahaha....N dis time, its no longer running....just a simple 30mins walk evryday. So hoping dat helps A LOT. hahahah...seriously, Im getting fatter MAN....and My knees are hurting. Tu la...GEMOK sgt..sampai kaki pon sakit. hahahah...So its back to exercise~!! weeehhhooooo....

N im still craving for Rojak Mama~!! Hmph...very dissapointing, u knw. Ystrday, planned to eat rojak mama with bubble tea n all...and de shop is closed! Ape tak sedih. huhu~~ Hope able to get it soooon...yum yum..( cam mana ni nak kurus...if evrytime craving for fooooddd??!!!) hahaha....

Btw, wanna add smthing to my bestie Suzzie. Hope her grddad be ok soon..and may de doctor able to treat Him. InsyaALLAH....my prayers are for him..and May he get well and able to be discharged. I soo feel the worri-ness and all...therefore, do update me aite. *huggiezz*

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Events before and after

The past week was my SICK MODE week. Terrible stomach cramps..and high fever... Which evntually had to go up n down to CGH...for check ups and all..accompanied by Mom and Dad. Ayg was seriously worried..and im very touched wth de continuous msgs and all.. :D ...also Abg n kak ima. But alhamdullilah....recovered

from all dat...n im FINE now. Thnks guys for reali concerning abt me...at dat time. Also de besties...u knw who u are. :)

After de whole wk..of memerap kat rumah...eventually get to mit up with de CLANZ ystrday. A short meet up dinner..bt was a nice one. Sharing stories n all.....So called lepaskan windu to de gerls...reali miss out de giler giler ness....esp in sch. hah~!!!

Hmmm...cant wait for the next 2 wks. Gonna borrow dad's car..and so called be having a mini advanced anni engagement celebration..plus Bonus..plus dot dot dot. HAH~! Yeah....Ayg had already planned out where to go..and i wan to eat IKAN PARI BAKAR~~ Yum yum. hehhe... So cant wait for dat. N de day after our anni...heading to HDB...for some "autographs" by us. AHAHA.....cam artist gitu. LIKE REEEAALL~! Nwys...yeah...cant wait for dat...and its happening NEXT 2 WEEKS. wooo hooo~

And so I've heard...we getting de GST money dis july. $200~!!! So....hahaha..i knw wat im gonna do with it. SAVE it..for my wedding henna. HAHAHAHAH...cam pathetic gitu kan. HAHA...bt wat to do. Nvm...save one thing jer dulu. heheheh....tu pun..save oni half of it for dat. de rest...ENJOY. okie..maybe not. SAVE yati SAVE. *slap forehead*

Okies off now...wheee~~ N im in spamming mode still, you knw... :P

Meaningful...deep

Firstly, Im stuck with dis song (Hari Berganti)...De lirik is VERY meaningful. And was introduced by Ayg. Nice~~~ :D



" Hari berganti...Masa pun berlalu....
Semakin Teguh kasih dan sayangku....
Bersama berjanji Sesama Berkasih...
Kini detik waktu menjadi penentu
HAri Berganti...

Sayang, Akan ku terus sabar menanti
Hingga tiba masanya ku berinai di jari.... "

Our last meet up...ended up with a Kara-OK session. It was nice....i mean de company..NOT our voices. HAHAHA....we basically kept laughing due to my CARTOON VOICE. hahah...n our pitching were TERRIBLE la yar. Told Ayg...OH NO...IM sooooo gonna screw up if we are gonna sing during our wedding..SUARA tak leh angz! hahahah... *faints*

Overall, we did enjoyed ourslves...within de 5 hrs der! hahah..ya...n we ended up with sore throats and Im sick now. heheh..actually was gonna get sick last sunday..and it became worst yrstday. Seriously LEPAAAAKK. Was suppposedly to go JB tday...bt Dad told me...its cancelled since Im sick. hu hu~~ Yap yap...nwys me no energy to go out and shop2. sure Boring. hmph~

Oh...Have yet to meet up with my dearest frens...besties...MDIS clanz..NTUC income peeps. Haha...stil have to set a date and all....Been a loooooong time we last met. Guess will have to find a free date for all. So...shall wait for de day huh.

Hmmm.......wanna looooose my weight~!!!! ho ho....can i jus go to LONDON WEIGHT..and den pose at de newspaper wen im slimmer?? HAHAHAHAHAHA!! Maybe Mommy can sponsor a lil. hehehe... :P
Very tiring weneva i wan to start back my exercise routine...n im SICK. if not sick...asthma attack!!!

Okies off peepz.....

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Unexpected Twist

Yestrday....was a busy day. Went out in de morning....followed Mom n dad to settle de imp stuffs b4 headed off to My late grdmtr's house...to spring clean with my family, aunts..uncle and cuzzin. Though we oni managed to clean up...a LIL area....it was pleasing to be with de whole family. It was pretty much Ok...until we saw de pressie which was meant for my bro n kak ima on their wedding day. It had been quite awhile.....whre my grdmthr kept saying dat my late Grdftr had buy dem somthing and wrapped it with newspaper...but dey have nt taken it or even see it yet UNTIL ystrday. What was more touching was......it was NOT wrapped by newspaper...It was nicely wrapped with a Blue wrapping paper with heart balloons pictures and CONGRATULATIONS wordings. n was covered with newspaper at one corner....to prevent any dust collection. Haiz.....A very touching thingy. We din expect dat. He actuali went to buy and search for de special pressie and wrapped it nicely. Guess it will uncover some things which will touch de heart evrytime we come to clean de house....I MISS DEM. :)

Life is pretty much de same....Basically jus hanging out at home..and following mom n dad to places. A lot of "outings" sure will be needed in dis period of time.

Cant wait for de Movie date dis coming Wednesday. Been a while since we watched movie tgther.....i tink it had been more den half a year or so. And to be told...He had booked de tix. heheh...dats sooo different of him...coz he dun normally do dat. nice. Guess some things which are not being done in a normal routine and was done once in awhile....Unexpected But nice..A small thing done cld turn out pleasing in de eyes.... :)

Heading off........

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To be Loved...

Im blessed....To be loved...and surrounded by my dearest family, Ayg and dearest besties. The ones who had alwys been der for me...all this years...when Im happi, worried, sad and angry. hehe...Basically this post is specially for u guys.

My family....who alwys hear my rants and all..giving me advise and provide a listening ear. To have such a supportive family....Im reali blessed. Especially wen Im jobless and all, dey are not being persuasive and all.... i mean..i had done my part..so lets wait for rezeki to come. Also...abg and kak ima...who may nt be staying here...but Im alwys looking forward to dem coming to my place...updating dem with new stories and all. Just making me feel happi wen dey are present. Lots of laughters and all....basically all my worries and sadness will flush away...weneva dey come by. Nice~ :)

Ayang...who had been there basically in every thing i do. The one who had been VERY supportive in wat i do. N being a sensitive, lembik, stubborn fiancee I AM.....he seriously had de patience to entertain me. N i know....HE could bimbing me and all in future. We are not perfect couple....and Im glad we managed to see our imperfectness and try to change for de better...in every ways we can. N i alwys pray dat our jodoh akan berkekalan till de rest of our lives. AMIN~~

Besties....YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE....You guys are my LOVE. The ppl who knws wats going on with my life...the ppl who are there wen I realli need someone to talk to..and give me pendapat and all. Especially wen it comes to personal thingy....feels open to talk abt it to de ones Im seriously close with. N im glad dat in every topic we talked.....we sees in different perception and not onli sided to one party. UNLESS...its seriously OBVIOUS. hah! N yap......everytime...my heart feels a lil uncomfy or upset abt certain thing...u guys jus knw abt it...w/o me even telling it yet.

Therefore, here....i wanna thank GOD for giving me such wonderful ppl to be with. I realli appreciate wat you guys do.....all these years..and I wish de best for all of us...no matter wat...love life, working life...social life...evrything. Like i had said to most........I will be GLADLY happi...wen Im surrounded by my loved ones....on THAT DAY. :D

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Loving memory of my Love...Grandmother

100 days after my grdfthr left us all....and 4hrs after we send her off to airport for CHINA trip holiday, my dearest Grdmtr (GM) whom we love sooo much..went away foreva. A shocking BUT true event. It was a seriously shock event for me n my family...

At 930pm...headed off to GM’s house..fetch her n my aunt. Took pics under de block..laugh2 here n der...we headed off to Airport..where we waited for few hrs. Chit chat...laugh n laugh...and take pics..its like evryting was SOOOOO super super happy day. N to c my GM so cheery and lively...was reali someting pleasing. She seriously look very bright and sooo nice.

De flight took off at 2am…and dey went in at 12am. We den headed homey…and 4hrs after all dat…got woken up by a call frm aunt saying dat GM had collapsed and flight to china had detour to Bangkok for emergency landing. And a short mmt after dat…..we got a msg….saying my GM had passed away. Shocking and Unexpected.

I thanked GOD dat her body was able to be brought back to spore on de day itself…which eventually reach my home at 1.30am…and we had to stay awake de whole night..reciting prayers for her. Its like taking turns until..me and Kak Ima and Mom cant take it..which we eventually fall asleep abt 3am+. So de guys…My bro, Dad and Ayg…stayed up..till morning.

We just met her up few hrs back…and it happens so fast dat she left us all. She was supposed to stay at my place after she came back from China…but it all didn’t happen. N I still have her pics in my hp de day we were on de way to de airport…but guess it will jus be staying in my hp for memories. Not to be published at all... I rmbred about wat I had planned out for her wen she stays with us….cook dishes and all dat…but Im glad she managed to eat my first n last dish I cooked for her..where she ate it in de airport…and it was MAGGI GORENG.

N de most touching thing was…she alwys says she wants to stay at our place…dun matter where she will be placed..she can sleep at de living room…ad de kitchen..as long as she stays with us...which of coz we wldnt placed her on such areas. plan to stay over after china..although we pestered her to come b4 dat…she refused. N to c her body placed on our living room….seriously saddens de whole thing where its like….she IS sleeping der. And not oni dat…..Her burial lot number was also OUR BLOCK NUMBER. How coincidence can dat be. Its like…she want to stay here so much…bt guess…der are some things related to us after she passed.

But b4 all dis…der were signs…which oni can be seen after all this had happen. Kept saying abt my late grdfather…EVRY SINGLE TIME we met. N like most ppl say..She LOVES my grdftr sooo bad..dat wen he left…she felt VERY lonely. Seriously we din expect it to be dis fast.

Alhamdullilah..all went well….till her burial process. Few days had gone..but weneva I tink of her….I still cry..coz Im soo close to her…she take care of me n bro eva since we were young..and to see her off in a shocking way. Dats seriously sads me…but Seriously to be honest…WE WERE REALI REALI in a happi mode…on dat airport day. Its like….my GM wans to see us cheery n happi…b4 she went away. Having us entertaining her…on her last day.

The impact is sooo deep….dat I cant get over it so soon. Guess it will take a very long time….A petite…loving grdmother…whom I dearly LOVE. Semoga roh datuk2 and nenek2 ku..dirahmati ALLAH dan ditempatkan di golongan org2 yg beriman. AMIN~

Lastly, wanna thnked you guys who have come…who have send me warm wishes and called me up to ask abt hw im coping. Realli appreciate it all. I couldn’t thanked you enough. Hanya ALLAH sahaja …dpt membalasnye.

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Neutral Feeling

Guess life is pretty much the same....evry now n den. Some ppl ask de same question as to whether I had gotten a job. But wat can i say....de OBVIOUS answer is NO...i haven get a job yet. Hah...guess no company wants me at dis mmt. From being enthusiastic in going for interviews...till I seriously had NO mood to talk abt it. I seriously dun even want to talk abt any interviews I went or watsoeva. Guess....it came up to me dat...Evrytime i tel ppl..abt interviews..abt hw i did on interviews..and all eventually make me wait for A MONTH..and having NO response..make it all drained out. N evrytime I had plans to do Part time jobs..der will be call for interviews..and I had to wait for results.. Hah. So....im jus gonna stay Numb. With or without interviews....I shall jus be silent...until SOMEONE eventually say.." YOU"RE HIRED!" hahah.. so lets wait for DAT day.

Besides dat...I also learn to be silent in stuffs i did. Coz i guess....certain things are not meant to be heard or spoken in public. guess....close ones wld knw wats up or wats coming up with my life. Coz at dis mmt, I tend to jus be silent...Too much talking leads to something u dun want to happen. Hah. Lessons learnt. But its ok...its nvr too late to change.

But every sad/irritated mmts in our lives...will sometimes be reduced by someone special in ur heart. I seriously appreciate wat You did for me dat time...wen i seriously was in an EMERGENCY state. haha! N being der for me wen Im down...makes me feel better...nt forgetting my lovely family who alwys der to support wat i did.

These few days...had been a lil rough for me...with new news..and updates abt certain things. Emotions up n down...and guess...someone knws hw to lighten it up..even with a simple sentence early morning. As most knw...hw He is..he is not someone who says mushy2 stuffs like ME. hahah..and to have such thing early morning..reali make my day up. Even if he may nt be here in person...those words are enough for me n him to knw.

Nwys...life must goes on..Lets just wait..and I reali hope ALLAH will grant my prayers soon. InsyaALLAH....AMIN~ Also prayers to my frens...may dey alwys be in a fine happy life and lovely ppl ard dem. :)

P.S: I wanna be like SITI~!!! hahaha..ook random...ignore me. heheheh...

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Messed up?? Dun tink so....

It was a weird feeling...an unexpected feeling..as well as funny feeling for her. After what she had said...it so called ended up the way she din expect it to be. But she was fine with it...just dat she was a lil disturbed by de fact that 'A' did dat due to de specific reason which eventually makes her feel confused. Who is she to 'A'?? Weird feeling....but nvm..she let it be..since like wat 'A' says..there is no otr choices. She is fine...as long as de ones she needed are der.

Its weird...Now she knows whats up with de many surveys and questionnaires. Its merely anther reason...and not jus for enquiries. Its ok...oni some wld knw who are de one stating it first. She is fine...just dat she was a lil upset..coz its confusing with such statement. She dun blamed 'A'....coz she herslf dunno whats in de mind. Hah!

Though its not fully choppies....she just have to wait. Once its being 'stamped'....guess its de next step ahead. Hmmm....seriously, she was nt expecting dis. She mainly pick carefully...as to NOT interupt certain things but nw its vice versa. hah! Its Ok...its Ok...SHe is fine...Just a lil tinge of curiosity.

From nw on....she shall just keep numb. Better dis way....den expose all and to be treated in such a way. Even if its nt gonna happen..which she wont knw...it gives a mark dat she is NOT someone whom she thinks she is to 'A". But wateva it is.....LESS EXPOSURE IS ALWYS BETTER.... :)

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Special for US with an irritating touch...

After few mths of waiting....we eventually got a letter from de HDB...to come down to pick our flat unit. ALHAMDULLILAH....we got de first few queue number...and eventually get to pick the unit we wanted. heheh... actuali Ayg did de choosing of level...n me de unit number itself. heheh...

Since we had to be der tday....at noon..and since Ayg jus came back from his nite shift...so we ended up meeting in de morning...w/o him resting at all. Must be seriously tiring for him..bt wat to do...we cnt chge de date. Nwys...got our queue tix...and off we went in...

De lady din explain to us anything..and jus jump abt which units we wanted. N after dat...she ask for our ICs and ask for de payslips..which of coz..WE din have all of it..since we were not even told to bring de related ones for de housing grants. N as for me....i have NONE....since im not even wking. So exception. N she was soooo rude..kept asking us to fold our payslips..and seriously tink we were kids..and told us..so rudely. FOLD FOLD FOLD! like..HELLO....shdnt YOU be doin it...n NOT us. She kept on repeating which mths were nt der OVER n OVER again...and show her irritated face coz she had to zap de payslips and all.

Ok...ppl who knows me..wld knw i wnt get pissed easily. But de way she treated us...make me...stared at her..and at de same time...make an irritated voice and i tink she knws IM angry...which eventually she TRIED to act nicely..but tooo bad. it doesnt help. She is totaly of NO USE. Din explain to us ANYTHING. its like..she expect us to knw all....bt HELLO..we are FIRST TIMERS. u shd tel us step by step....BUt NOOOOOOO.....she jus ask us to sign n sign n sign..and dint even say anything or explain. N we had to read it...n LUCKY we had more or less knw wats goin on. EVen de financial areas..she din even say abt it.

She basically say in a hurry mode...dis n dat..like as if she is lazy to entertain us. Or maybe coz its LUNCH time...N not only dat. Rudely throw de paper on de table....like someone giving u something in a rude manner like..NAH...take it. Hmph!! So basically.....its like..YOU dun even have a chance to ask her. Nwys, I dun even bthr to ask....N Ayg knws wen Im pissed...i seriously cldnt be bothered at all. I wonder if she treat such ways to otr young couples....like as if we are sooo naive.

The first ting came up my mind...is COMPLAIN. hahah..yeah..maybe its Normal of ppl to do so. But guess in dis case...since I had otr issues to take into consideration...i need to do it. Hahah...and for Ayg to agree with it...sets me up ahead..coz he is Not someone who wld be bothered to complain if its nt important. N ya...n seriously hope dey do smthing abt it.....

Nwys....looking at de bright side....Im glad dat de unit was already been booked..and i cant wait for de future. InsyaALLAH...all be fine. heheh..... :D

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Wats up next??

I knw I have not been updating my blog since dunno when. Guess cos there is nothing much happening in my life dis days. heheh...Been slacking at homey all day long except if going out with my parents or my frens.

Past week had been my "Missing" mode with Ayg. Padahal nvr mit him for oni a week. Yati crappie...i know~! hahahah... wat to do. Im just a GERL. heheh.. N am soooo glad dat he actualli took leave tmrw as to be able to spend time tgther de whole day. whee~!! hadnt been goin out like dat since dunno when. So cant wait for tmrw...to go out..basically coz he wants to SHOP~! Boring...Me no shop2x...me follow shop2x oni. hehehe...Den maybe chill out somewhere after dat. Best! Airport maybe?! heheh...

Oh..saw de updates in de web. Cant wait for the time...guess it will be called up within dis period of time. hmm....aftr all de days we waited de past mth...its gonna be announced by dis mth. I HOPE!! hahaha. Had picked dem up..had seen de plans...so now to be able to achieve it. So let de day awaits. wooo hoo~!!

Also..wanna thnked Bth Abg n Kak Ima for de sponsorship. wheee~!! thnkies2x so much. so dat have been booked. One more major thing to take note...den off for de little2 stuffs. heheh...Seriously gonna have a lot of MINUS signs wen i started working. haha...

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A dream which she hopes it will come true...
Something which she reali look forward to...
A future....based on Both....
Guess dat feeling in de dream...wld apply to reality...
Hopefully...it will...
InsyaALLAH....
Cant wait for THE day... :D

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Slack O' Me

Its ending of February~!! How fast time reali flies, man. Hmmm....As alwys been slacking at home..waiting for calls and spamming emails. hahaha...I shall not say what i reali wan..right nw...coz i guess i had been saying it in de past few blogs of mine. hahah...So i shall keep numb abt it. Kalau ade rezeki..aderlah yer. hehehe...

Hmmm....my exercise routine had been goin on quite a ok. hahaha....mcm mana ni nak kurus kan badan..if I keep eating n eating n eating. HAHAH...bt den, i have to prove to Ayg..i can do dis!! HAHAHAH.... He had NO words to say alraedy. nvm.....Have 1yr plus to loose it all. heheh...

N talking abt food~~~!!! Going to Seoul Garden tmrw with de MDIS clanz! *slap forehead* Plus its half price!!! soooo of coz..who wanna miss dat, rite? so yar...plus been a while since i met some of de gerls. So tmrw is de gathering though 2 of us cldnt make it..bt nvm...we shall mit up again sooon!!

Ayg is getting new specs!!!! I likeeee~!!! hehehe....nice nice...with his sepet eyes. Though, I selit2x...ask if i can have new specs as well....BUUUUTTT since my specs is PERFECTLY a ok.....i cant changed it. hu hu. Maybe i shd do somthing to my specs...so Ayg can buy me new ones huh. HAHAH... *Bad YATI*. hahahah....nwys, i have no idea on what specs i wan...so nvm...nxt time, den can ask. hahaha

Currently Im scanning tru..de ways on hw to wear shawls as tudung A NICER way...coz i cnt seem to belit it nicely..and it alwys end up like.....SOOO messy! But seriously...i envy those ladies who wear it soooo neatly. Maybe next time, if i were to see dem in public...shd ask dem straight away eh? HAHAH..cam betul jer. hahah..nwys, have yet to find nice2 ones.

Besides all dat....im jus back to wat im doin...Slacking at home....... :P

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Life's UP

Wat had I been doing?? Nothing much lately. Basically, de normal routine.....been going out with my besties de past days. N have yet to set a date for outing with Aliza n her lil princess Arissa. So yar....guess it be done after CNY. Heading out to mit de MDIS clans dis Sunday. Best! Soooo long nvr mit dem up...and its Gonna be a PICNIC day for us. nice!

Asking Mom n Dad to accompany me go SHENG SHIONG tmrw...since need to buy some stuffs for de SUNday outing. Den maybe go smewhere...OooOOo...hehehe

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Still waiting for de letter in order for US to come down to pick wat we want. N once dat happen, Im soooo super duper glad...dat it will be a DOUBLE confirmation. So just had to wait for de letter to appear in my letter box. hmmm.....

Besides dat, There is also a slight change to our initial plan next year. Hah! thnks to my dearest KAK IMA...dat we managed to notice it falls on a Hari raya haji. Lucky US...dat we got to knw it quick....soooo...ended up a change...and i guess...de Initial plan to do it after our 12th anni duesnt work. heheh...Takpe..sure ade hikmah. N glad de date had been finalized back yet again. BUT dis time, I shall NOT tell UNTIL its NEXT year. Coz evrytime I announce certain dates...it will NVR happen..and dis had also happen during our tunz. So yar.....guess wen de time comes....de date will be announce. So now...i shall KEEP my mouth SHUT! heheheh

N glad dat SOMEONE is helping me out with some of de wedd preparation. ( u know who u are). heheh....lets GO shopping tgther..wen de time comes k. N it will be a secret btw US...till de day to reveal wats up with our plan. hahaha....wateva it is, i shall confirm with de MAK pengantin dulu k. hahaha

SITI NURHALIZA isssss SOOOOO beautiful jus nw at SURIA. hahah..ya, I knw..>TOTALLY random. But cant deny. SHe loooks sooo gorgeous. heheh...SAYA SUKA BANGET!! heheheh...

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Unexpected

Hadnt been in my cheery and bubbly mode lately...guess its the sensitive and moody period of de mth. hah. Nwys, besides the moody moody me eva since last few days...was kinda overjoyed by the results obtained yestrday ( guess some of u wld knw wat im talking abt). heheh...After all those days checking the website EAGERLY...nothing was seen but wen i was not even eager to see it,...was just scanning tru de webby and was glad dat it was shown. Alhamdullilah yet again...to be able to have dat result. Both me n Ayg had been waiting for it for sooo long....and guess dat waiting mmt gives us de best out of evryting.

So wats next?? Next is....I have to read n read AND read...to undrstd wats goin on. Seriously..at some pt, it seems tedious for us. But wat to do....u have to even if u dun wan to. Hmm... And tedious thingy plus stress mode plus sensitive mode DO NOT HELP in such mmt...which may lead to a lil bit of hiccups here n der....but I am reali "syukur" to have Someone who reali Understds me wen im down..enduring a SENSITIVE EMO fiance. hehehe... Sori, Ayg.....

At some point, Im Very happy with all de happenings ard me. I guess....one by one...things are getting a lil better in some way. Alhamdullilah. May ALLAH gives me all de patience it takes to encounter wat eva events ahead me. :) Guess....once it is CONFIRM PLUS DOUBLE CHOPPIES.....i will be extremely overjoyed...and if I get a job soon...dat will be a DOUBLE BONUS. InsyaALLAH.

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Whats up next??

Yay~! Abg and Kak Ima coming over for de night tday. best~!! Gonna cook somethng special for dem. heheh....Maybe FISH eh, kak ima~! I force u to eat k. *evil Grin*. heheheh....Cant wait cant wait. Wanna tel u abt de wedd preparations also tau~!!! hehehe...Muaks~!!!

Besides dat....its reaching end of de mth...and i am hoping to be hearing SOME gd news. I hope. So lets wait. Nwys, gonna mit up with my besties. After soooo long, meeting up with ALIZA dis wed...and also meeting Suz, Mas and Hani dis Sunday~!! Yeah...its driving and picture taking day~!! wheee~!! So cant wait for all dat.

Been surveying for some stuffs also. Cant get hold of cheap2 henna drawings. I know its still early...bt haha...no harm looking out for it, rite. Nwys....most of de ranges starts frm 120 and above. Nvm...can find some otr services. Still slowly looking out for otr things as well...and Thnks Suz for recommending some of de stuffs. I shall inform my mom yar. :) Im currently STUCK with my PINK diary...where I put ALL de requirements thingy..After de years gone by, Im finally using de PINK book Mas gave me for my bday. hahah....

My exercising routine is FINALLY back. yay!! hahahaha.....bought my normal GNC pills...and had been running yet back again. hahahah....WAnna Bukti kan to Ayg dat I CAN LOOSE MY WEIGHT. hahahah!! How i wish, i can eat n eat n EAT....bt no fats build up. ho ho...keep on dreaming, yati. :P

Okies....gtg now..Nothing interesting to talk abt besides all of de above. Hah~! told u...im leading a B-O-R-I-N-G life. hahahah......tink gonna do henna drawing on my hand later...JUST TO KILL TIME. ho ho... :P

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Updatezzz

Been a while since I last update my Blog..even my personal blog too. So here I am...just a few updates of my BORING life. haha. :P

Went for de TPSS chalet hosted by Mash. A fun gathering...jus de crazy US...like as if we were in secondary school. Soooo missing those mmts. Taking LOTS n LOTS of pics and BBQ-ing and eating and playing with de light sticks and fire sparklers. hahaha...Thks Mash for having a chalet for US. It was a Best one Indeed. :)

Besides dat, me n Ayg more or less had settled some of the things for de important event. Alhamdullilah...so I reali hope all will goes smoothly...Have yet to wait for somthing "major" too dis end of de mth. Haiz....so reali wish all will be A OK for us. InsyaALLAH....lets pray dat all be settled smoooothlly. hehehe.....

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Basically, Im just sitting at home EVRY SINGLE DAY. Looking at job ads which i dun even knw thy existed OR not. seems like there had been NO replies at ALL. So nt sure if its either my resume was not passed to de HR or de HR dept is working EXTREMELY slow or de jobs had already been filled. Haiz....The excitedness to get a job suddenly fades away from me.....Now i shall just wait n c....Had done my best. So guess...ALLAH is testing me...and Hope dis test will bring hikmah to de future. InsyaALLAH. Kept complaining to my dad...mom...and basically EVRYONE i know. hahah....

The oni thing which I seriously dun undrstd when ppl kept asking..."huh?? da ade degree pun lum dapat2 kerja??"..." hw come u not wking yet?"....I WISH i had dat answers...BUT how i knw rite..its NOT like as if I DIDNT do my part to find a job. Wat can i do if dat company DUN even wan me? haiz...Seriously Hoping I can get a job pretty fast...TIME is already running VERY fast...and Next year is SOOOO not a LONG way to go. I need to start saving;....DIE DIE. :(

If by end of dis mth, I am NOT working stil...I soooo in need any PART TIME jobs..which I had applied also. Haiz....this is SOOO killing me. Nwys, I know u guys are also bored with my rants abt getting a job. hah... :p LETS HOPE N PRAY....

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Was also stress up with some stuffs de past few days...and I was reali glad dat Ayg was der to make me smile. It was a different side of him....trying to make me extra cheery for dat day. Not like as if he nvr did dat b4. heheh..just dat dis time, it was a nice gesture. Something which makes me feel like i can REALI depend on him wen Im seriously DOWN.

Came down to mit me up....even wen he didnt sleep after he came back frm his night shift and all. Which eventualli leads to a 2hr sleep at de airport foodcourt. hahah...Yeah, I din wan to wake him up coz knew he was extremely tired. Realli appreciate it alot.....for being der for me...wen I seriously in need of someone to cheer me up. :) Thanks Ayg...

Oh...also made a PROMISE to Him....dat I wld Loose all my fats~! hahah...Not like he force me to do...just dat I realli wan to loose it all. Like my mom said..." Nanti nak kawin, baju tak muat...nanti baju besar2 sikit jer variety, macam mana?"....hahahah....Yeah..So de Motivation is DER. Plus after i heard one mak andam told Ayg dat I shd loose a lil wgt...dat makes me Highly Motivated AGAIN. SO yeah...starting it all back again~!!! woo hooooo~!!! hahahaha....

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De rest of de day tday...gonna slack at Home yet again. EVryones working....and Im "working" at home. Wonder wat i shd cook tday???.....hmmm...Okies Off peeps.....gonna get going....dunno get going for wat. :P

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Feeling so nice

The feeling crept into her dis few days...
It was like a fairy tale...
Something that makes her smile most of de time...
Nothing big or extravagant to talk about...

BUT
The fact that small things are done for HER...
Makes her smile each day...
Simple words but yet meaningful seems to melt her heart in evry ways...

Guess since HE seldom shows his romantic side...
And wen He shows it...it reali mean SOMETHING to her...
SHE dun need someone who alwys shower her with mushy2 words...
Coz she knew, such person reali mean it wen they say it and
nt jus a regular common lovey dovey words
Just to please a gerl...

N seems dat He had been doin small things dis days to make Her smile...
Her cheery voice will alwys filled up the phone weneva he called...
She knew...things done no matter hw big or small it is,
If it comes from His heart and his initiative to make it happen...
She knew dat lies her happiness in their life...

A simple life filled with sincerity and love....
Smthing which need not need to be show off to public...
But smthing which onli needs to be known by 2 ppl....HIM and HER....

She feel blessed....
Thanked GOD once again....
He alwys scared dat he couldnt afford a wonderful life ahead for Her...
But InsyaALLAH....
Start of a simple normal life...and they will nvr know what lies for dem in the future...
Its better than to pester or force smthing which is nt affordable and yet suffer....

Now....
They awaits for the special day in year ahead....
May look far...bt time will rush and b4 thy know it...
Its THEIR time...
InsyaALLAH....may all run smoothly....and their LOVE continues till de rest of their lives....